i'm sorry anon! for whatever reason i can't post that so i'm going to put it here, okay? ;n;
oh my gosh wow okay
one - do you have a crush at the moment?
this is actually an interesting question! i don’t really have a crush, but there’s someone where like. it’s a big possibility? like uh. if i let myself, i think i could definitely develop quite the crush on them! i feel like it’d be easy. like. i don’t know. they’re really great and i love them platonically so very much!
but there’s like. something there. that. if i let myself. i could probably fall in love with them. it almost happened once before so :’D
nine - what’s the most important part of a relationship?
in any relationship? trust and love. this applies to both platonic and romantic. love is important. if not love, trust. definitely trust. third place is honesty.
ten - do you like to be in serious relationships or just flings?
well i’ve. only been in two relationships and both of them were really serious. honestly, i’m not the kind of person who absolutely always wants a romantic relationship. it’s more like, if i like someone, i want to be with them. that being said, i don’t doubt i wont have any flings in my life. i just really like serious relationships.
seventeen - do you believe it’s possible to fall in love over the internet?
without a doubt in my mind.
twenty-one - do you think people who have dated can stay friends?
uhh. i think it’s definitely possible for some. i think it really depends on how deep the relationship was and how the end of it came about.
twenty-two - do you think people should date their friends?
if they like them and the feelings are reciprocated, i certainly don’t see why not. then again, both my relationships were with friends. idk i think that if they want to they should.
twenty-nine - what do you notice first about another person?
umm. offline, i notice their smile and their lips. online, how they interact with others.
thirty - what is your orientation [just going to simplify it lmdo]
i’m. i guess the appropriate ~label~ would be panromantic homosexual.
thirty-one - would it bother you if your partner suffered from some mental illness?
why should it? i don’t really see why that would bother me.
forty - have you ever had a valentine?
um. romantically, twice! since i happened to be in a relationship with both of my exes for at least a year, so. though, i never actually spent the day with them.
platonically i’ve had several. i’ve actually! always seen Valentine’s Day as a day for my friends. :’D so i usually, when i’m not in a relationship, have my friends as my valentine!
fifty-seven - do you think it’s silly to consider suicide over a broken heart?
…..i. um. i don’t think it makes the person considering it silly, if that’s what you’re asking. uh. it’d be hypocritical of me to say it /was/ silly, anyways. so no. i actually don’t find it silly. just sad.
sixty-five - would you consider yourself a cuddler?
hell fucking yes i would i love cuddling platonic and romantic cuddles are both just the best okay i really adore cuddling just djskalf i would be happy if i could cuddle someone all the time oh my god
all the crushes?
oh my god are you serious
okay here we go
the following are letters to anyone i can remember having a crush on. which actually isn’t that many but y’know.
Dear Stevie Cooper,
hi idk if you remember me but we were kind of friends in the third grade. believe it or not i am pretty sure you wee my first crush. which is why, if you’ll remember, i used to sit around making fun of Barbies with you.
it was a lie and i am sorry for that. unu you were still a really cool chick and i just really wanted you to like me
anyways i bet you’re still being a total badass on a skateboard and making all the fellas and the occasional lady swoon because damn gurl
hope your life is awesome homie
~Monique
Dear Irene,
uh hi
i’m sure you might remember me i mean we were really close in the seventh grade and i loved spending time with you and looking back now i am pretty sure i liked you a lot
thanks for hanging out with me even though i’m pretty sure it was probably obvious. silly crushy things aside, i still think you were one of my best friends that year. plus you introduced me to Phantom of the Opera thank you bless your heart
i’m sure you still sing fabulously and are probably still kicking ass at track things. i hope life is goin well for you homes.
Dear Elena,
i am so, so fucking sorry. i never meant to break your heart. i know it’s hard to believe, but i really did love you. i loved you so, so much. and even now, though it isn’t that of a romantic sense, i still love you because you were an awesome friend and i am just so sorry.
i didn’t want to be unfair to you. i fell out of love and i couldn’t stay with you like that because it wasn’t fair to you.
i’m so sorry.
and i know we had that nasty fight and nasty words exchanged but i’ve always cared about you and i’m just
i am so sorry.
Dear Krystal,
i’ve already said the things i needed to to you
i guess i’m sorry we’ve ended up this way. i’m sorry that i am still in love with you. i’m sorry that i also hate you so fucking much.
i’m sorry for lying when i said i couldn’t be angry at you and that i didn’t hate you; i had no idea then how bitter and broken i’d become.
i hate you.
if i see you again, it’ll take a lot for me not to just slap you or shove you away.
i love you.
if i see you again, i might break all over again because you’re beautiful and you still have my heart. what’s to stop me from trying to kiss you other than the rage and the hatred and the bitterness?
it’s all the more painful knowing how close you are now, and knowing that it was so easy for you to get over me. had i no impact on you as you did on me?
i’m being selfish.
go fucking burn, you beautiful fucking cowardly angel.
Dear Almost-Crush,
if ever you decide you want to talk about it, i’m willing to open that box for you. i don’t have a crush on you, but i know it’d be so very easy to develop one; i already had an infatuation with you once upon a time.
if you ever need me as a romantic friend more than platonic, just let me know. i love you regardless and i know that if it happened, we’d probably be something really fucking beautiful. possibly fucked-up as well but y’know.
love
Moni
