so. I’m not sorry. I have issues that I can’t handle. And I’m going through way too much at a time, realizing that this is my last year living at home, trying to recover, losing my best friend, dealing with a long distance relationship, trying to decide where I want to go to college next year and trying to keep my grades up and all the other shit that keeps getting thrown at me.

Forgive me for being stressed. Forgive me for wanting someone to have faith in me. But I refuse to ask for your forgiveness for how I’m reacting. You keep adding to this.   You keep making me feel worse because I’M LOSING YOU. And you let me push you away. It’s so EASY for me to push you away.

I wish we could still be friends, but I don’t know what you want.