I hate being that friend. The dumb one. The stupid one. The ugly one. The untalented one. The annoying one. The useless one. The failure .The freak. The one whose badluck. The weak one. The loud one. The unimportant one. The problematic one. The one who always seems to Hurt everyone. The one who can’t seem to trust the people who are right there for her. I’m just afraid they’ll wake up one day, and decide they’re tired of that girl. Of me. They’ll wake up, and realize I’m really not worth anything. If I’m around them for long enough, they’ll get tired of me. Afterall, They don’t need me. Who in their right mind want a girl with so many faults around.? They’re so amazing. So perfect. And I’m just another burden for them to carry on their shoulders…
To name a just a few things I've been called over the years by people in my school...
About my appearance:
“fat”
“fatass”
“whale”
“the big show”
“jiggly”
“acne face”
“crusty”
“ugly”
“juba the hut”
“flabby”
“hey you look like [insert person whose considered really ugly at school]”
“casper”
About my personality
“weirdo”
“freak”
“you’re really weird”
“stupid”
“mental”
“hippie”
“terrorist”
“devil”
“emo”
“dyke”
“nerd”
“annoying”
“bitch”
About the way I dress
“emo”
“hippie”
“hipster”
“goth”
“poor”
“homeless”
When people see me with my firends
“whore”
“lesbian”
“slut”
“desperate”
“bitch”
And overall what I think besides my friends how people would know me as
“That fat girl with all that acne whose really weird and asking for attention. She’s always with guys and she dates anyone she can get cause’ she’s desperate as shit. And she’s always dressing weird trying to get attention and where’s stuff that’s super stupid. Plus she’s way to fat to try to wear skirts and stuff, fat people are supposed to wear sweatpants and hoddies, duh. And she’s probably bisexual or something because she’s always staring at other girls when they’re screaming like maniacs at each other just asking for attention. Plus she’s always holding hands with girls who are nothing but slutty emos. She’s also stupid saying how God isn’t real and saying stuff how she doesn’t agree with the president, HE’S BLACK. She’s gotta be a racist terrorist. And she’s totally trying to be emo walking around acting all shy and quiet, emo was so 2 years ago, and she doesn’t even shop at Hot Topic, because she’s a poor loser. All she wants is attention and thinks she’s cute or smart or better than us when really she is just gonna die alone with her fat, emo ass.
Guys, bulling sucks, I know first hand. You guys might think it’s funny now, but it’s not so funny when the person commits suicide is it?
so.. im screwed?
my mom didnt let me go to school today, because she wants to talk to my teacher. i hope she lets me go there in April 2!!! pleaseeee, Lord. let me gooo. :((
mom doesnt understand why i didnt do it anyway. -,- i just REALLY HAVE TO GO TO SCHOOL.
i’ll take all her accusations and let her talk about me not thinking and being stupid. -___- just let me go to school. -___-
