the same as
何気ない日々 just the same old thing
気づかない振りしてても i can’t run away from myself
i tried to show you i’m strong
just get all along うまく甘えたい気持ちが
the shape of love is the same as your heart is
it doesn’t matter who you are
so tell me my heart is the same as yours is
no matter how much you say i can’t escape
I can not write on blog because I have giant fingers.
Engineer will type messages to you for me. She is writing what I am saying now.
(Hello y’all. I’m just typing messages for Magdalina, our heavy, her fingers are a bit too big for the keyboard, so I’m transcribing for her.)
Yesterday and Today is big update. Many new items. Very busy times for Mercenaries. We have to take tour of Mann co store and look at hats and things tomorrow. Man teams go today and yesterday. I think this is stupid baby idea for Man teams to go first.
In week we take tour of new map. Man teams will spill blood there long before we do.
Is very dry in new map I think. I will not like it. I do not like dry places.
Is very dark here. Water on left side of building still not fixed because of Alligators. Alligators hide like tiny baby cowards in sewer! Alligators break pipes maybe like spies break sentry gun? I will kill them if they try to kill Engineer. Engineer is good friend, is typing message for me now! Engineer will fix water, and I will fix gators. Heheheh.
Is all I want to say, Engineer. Message is done.
ABC interview, AU, 2009.
- John Mayer: My job is to play songs for people, my job is to transport people, my job is to give people 45 minutes on a record and two hours on stage of escapism. And I think for me to take the role of tutor, and trying to explain to people why they should feel sorry for me, or why they should have a little more sensitivity to the fact that I'm not just complaining because I'm a celebrity, this is actually a problem. I don't necessarily want to do that. Because I think in explaining that, whether you were successful at it or not, you've taken that ability to transport somebody away, you know what I mean?
- Interviewer: It's not just escapism is it, I think you also have a desire to reinforce our essential humanity and brotherhood.
- John: Which you can do with music without having to explain outside of music why somebody--you know somebody could come up to me and go ''Dude, why not just let them have the picture?' Now, I have two choices. I could sit them down and talk to them, and 5 minutes later their head would be on backwards, they would go 'I had no idea.' But the question is, do you really want somebody to carry that load? Isn't it sort of completely antithetical to what you go and see an artist for? To take on his load, you know. That's why I say to people 'It's awesome, it's fine, don't worry about it.' There might be information that I could give people that would exonerate me as being a douchebag as people call me, but I think overall, it's a really bad idea. Because you will in having done that, removed this relationship that's essential in somebody saying 'Just play me a song, and let me just disappear into it.'
- Interviewer: Yeah, I don't want you to dump on me, but I love it when you celebrate your humanness and I love it when you celebrate your vulnerability.
- John: Oh no no, that's fine, I just mean talking about--trying to explain the vitriolic media, I don't think that should be my narrative. So I'd rather deal with that on my own time, and if it is terrible, then I'll deal with that. But I think to interject that into the stream of communication I have with people with a guitar around my back, and a record coming out, I think if the music is good enough, you can erase all that stuff. And let me deal with the stuff that might be not as fun as I wish it was, but then you at least maintain that ability to communicate with a fan. I don't want anybody worrying about me. I don't want a fan going like 'I had no idea.' That's terrible, and they don't realize that their head is hung low and they're walking away from me and they've realized that I have just taken away everything from them that they believed in.
ABC interview pt.2 AU, 2009.
- John Mayer: I don't think humanity is gonna evolve in time or has evolved in time to catch up with this radical change socially. I have seen people walk up to me who their society is in complete disagreement with their humanity. People will come up to me and act like I came up to them. They will walk up to me and say "You know, I never do this, and I don't really care either way." and they're trembling. Or people who hold up a camera to try and take your picture and they're trembling. Or people who are both coming to a show and acting like they don't care, you know. Our behavior is in complete diametric opposition with our humanity right now.
- Interviewer: I think there's that whole thing of cyborgs and avatars, and you can be a hero in cyber space and it's much easier to do that than to actually go out into the real world and relate as a human being.
- John: Absolutely.
- Interviewer: Because you can't compete with this airbrush perfection.
- John: Well here's what I found out not long ago. I was at a party, in the middle of October I went to a party and a woman approached me. A sweet, young middle aged girl, and she walked up but I could tell there was a glint in her eye, that there was something a little sinister about to come out. And her tape recorder went on and she started asking me these questions that were just designed--there was no probable good outcome for me, they were designed to corner me.
- Interviewer: Because your BS radar must be really well developed by now.
- John: Yeah, it's really good. I'm really hard to pin down, I'm really hard to play, you know. And so I could just tell, and this woman had her arms folded but still had this little microphone out and she was saying "What do you think about Obama winning the Nobel Peace Prize? I think it was early." You know, sort of these really leading questions.
- Interviewer: Yeah, can't you see these headlines!
- John: Yeah, what I did was, really shut her down. Because what was happening was, who she was trying to be behaviorally did not match her humanity. So she couldn't have been as snarky on her blog as she was in person, so she was coming off sweaty. She was just sweaty, you know. And I sort of took her down, not her, but I sort of took her blog down as I would have on the internet, but I did it in person. So it was a real time, in person, tearing down of this persons blog. And when this person went back to write their blog which of course was back in the tone of Godzilla. Not the sweaty 20 something woman, the Godzilla of snark, it took on this thing that I had been really mean to her. Like I had really been mean to her, so I learned something right there.
- Interviewer: You didn't play the game.
- John: Yeah, you can write it, and when you're in the matrix or the hatrix as I call it, you can write anything you want. You can write "I hope you get hit with a bullet, with a cancer tipped bullet and you die instantly", you can write anything you want, but if you say it in person, the rules of humanity have no choice but to still apply. The rules of humanity apply. And when you go back into the matrix you can write whatever you wanna write--you know this woman who was talking to me at this party, I started to feel bad. I said "What if I was a little harsh on her?" And I went to the blog that she had printed the whole thing, and the blog was called "The Vulture."
Excerpt from Berklee Clinic 2011 pt.4
“Practice hard, practice longer than anyone else. Train your brain to focus for large clips of time. See how many paragraphs you can read of an article before you turn the page. When was the last time I heard a whole record? When was the last time I wrote a whole song? And you start to realize that your brain— my mind was narrowing in terms of the bandwidth of what it accepts as a chunk of information, and that’s the scary part. That’s where rules are rules. So as soon as I plugged that up and I went ‘I’m not gonna ask myself anymore what are some good tweets I can throw up’. Everything goes into the record. I didn’t bring my laptop to the studio, I got a new phone number, the phone never rings. I have no friends, everyone knows I’m in the studio. I go in the studio and then I stay there until I look up and then I walk out. I’ll be there for eight, ten hours, take two breaks to eat, three breaks to pee and then I don’t look up. And I wouldn’t have done the last time, and I didn’t do that on the last record, and that’s why my last record is not my favorite record. But you write where you’re coming from, and you write and make the record in the life that you have, and I realized I’m tweeting, I’m blogging, I’m looking around for other things that are advantageous to nothing. To having golf claps on Twitter, you know. I’m not putting Twitter down, Twitter is great to use once you have a thing to tweet about, you know. So, everyone go home and ask yourself ‘What is my unit of focus? Is it ten minutes, twenty minutes?’ ‘Cause I got my unit of focus now to be hours.” - JM