I've been spending to much time thinking "What if?"
I’ve spent to much of my time thinking about the what if situations. There’s no point in living like that, because all it does is bring you down. At the moment, im just missing someone to cuddle at night…
I had a good day today, didn’t do much in the morning… well thats because i got up at 3 in the afternoon. which is another reason why my sleeping patterns all messed up. Anyway, once i was up and ready i went to meet a friend (who i hadn’t seen in a while). It was good to catch up with someone, and nice to see a new face. Well, not new, but a face i hadnt seen in a while. We talked about the usual stuff, all the things we had done since school etc… spoke about the situation with the douche bag ex… Took some advice, which ill keep in mind. but at the minute its kinda hard to take on board. She told me, not to write about her and when i think about her. do something that’ll take my mind off it. Its easy to say, but hard to make myself do it.
Which is a problem.
I’m finding it hard to push myself to do things to keep my mind off stuff… I mean, the only thing i have is my beautiful xbox (NERD!!) or just writing up how im feeling. But then if im sharing how im feeling and she reads it all then she knows how im hurting and she’ll use it in some way (not that she WAS that sort of person when i met her, but im not to sure anymore) but thats her fault, with the way shes treated me. ANYWAY moving on from that story…
Work tomorrow… We had a mystery shopper, and the girl that took the order got 0% :| so we didn’t get our £100 bonus, which was suppose to take us to blackpool for the day. WHICH would have been nice.. so thanks for that. But then again, Cant really complain, as the person won us our £200 in the bank that we’ve got now…. Buuuuuuuuuuuut shes a douche bag as well, so hate on the biatch ;)
Now im sat on the sofa watching a film that im not really following on TCM… im guessing its an old film… im thinking about whether to go on the xbox or not. probably will do, because Batman’s just AWESOME! I have Battlefield coming out on Friday - looking forwards to that :) I tell you what i do need, i need a capture card for my box so i can record some Game play and pop it on youtube … I post a lot of random stuff on there, if you’re interested my Channels - “Mrjack1345” search meh! :)
Anyway, thats enough rambling on for today. time to go on the xbox i think :) Yep, made up my mind, its the box :) who needs sleep :)
Lifes a struggle -.-