Pinakamasakit palang malaman na ang pinaniniwalaan mong katotohanan eh isa lang palang malaking kalokohan.
Hirap ng ganun no? Yung ginawa kang tanga! Yung pinaniwala ka niya sa lahat ng sinasabi niya na wala dapat problemahin pero lahat pala ng sinisikreto niya eh proproblemahin mo pala. Alam mo yun.. Yun bang ang nais mo lang eh yung mapabuti siya pero hindi niya mapigilan ang sarili niya sa pag gawa ng kasalanan sayo.
Sabagay.. Kung hindi ba naman masama ang ginagawa niya, isisikreto pa ba niya? Patuloy ba siyang magsisinungaling sayo mairaos lang ang masamang gusto niya?
Minsan, binigay mo na ang lahat pero wala pa rin. Bakit? Kasi, sa bawat gawin nating kabutihan sa kanya. Mag aassume tayong ma appreciate niya yun eh. Pero kung wala talaga siyang pakialam sayo, kahit na ano gawin mo. Patuloy at patuloy pa rin niyang gagawin ang mga bagay na ikakasakit ng damdamin mo.
Kaya mas maganda pa siguro, lumayo na lang kapag ganun na lang ang sistema palagi. Kesa sa paulit ulit kang gawing tanga dahil sa pinaniniwala kang wala ka dapat problemahin at intindihin. Sasabihing may mga bagay na siyang tinigil at hindi na niya gagawin eh patuloy pa rin ang pag gawa. Kaso yun nga, sa pasikretong paraan.
Para patuloy kayong ok, patuloy ka niyang mapaniwala na matino kayong dalawa. Pero hindi mo alam.. tinatarantado ka na pala.
It's my fault
It’s my fault for pushing people away. It’s my fault I always make people disappointed in me. It’s my fault for keeping my distance from people. It’s my fault for always wanting more from everyone. It’s my fault for just taking advantage of people.
It’s my fault, no need to tell me. I already know, so honestly what’s the point. It seems as if I can’t do anything right to keep people in my life. Sigh, I guess.
Double Standards?
I am often criticized for leading an openly “healthy and fit” lifestyle. People end up thinking I’m bragging about who I am and what I can do but I don’t see it that way. Why is it completely acceptable for somebody to talk about how lazy they are, how long they were at work, how many hours they slept, or how much they love watching tv/eating/sleeping? Why can people be open about how much they love pizza or how many slices they can eat but I cannot talk about grilled chicken and veggies without getting weird looks? Why is laziness more acceptable to talk about 24/7 but it is not acceptable for me to state a fact about myself? Why is it not ok for me to talk about my passions? I feel like it may have something to do with jealousy and/or guilt but I don’t want to jump to that conclusion right off the bat. I am not “bragging” when I do not want to eat fast food with you. I am not “bragging” when I say I’m at the gym/going to the gym/just got back from the gym when you ask me what I’m doing. Clean eating and exercise have just become something that are important to me and a big part of who I am. Most of the time I’m thinking about these things so I don’t know why my talking about it has to be so unacceptable.
It used to bug me, but I’ve come to the realization that this is who I am and I won’t change that for others. People will come along who accept me and hang around. Those are the people who will raise me up. There are people who may leave because of my lifestyle but I don’t need those people around anyway. They will only pull me down. They aren’t meant to be in my life and won’t help me advance. This state of mind has helped me through a lot of things. I love the way I am choosing to live my life and I surround myself with those who do too.
God
What if I told you everything you believed was not as it seems. You know the old cliche ” believe in yourself “… well..this is the whole point of this post. I have thought of the idea, that we are all we need. What I mean by this is that, we as human beings, are all we need to get by in a religious/faith standpoint. This is why.
All the stories you have heard about Jesus,God etc. are simply to put you in fear. Although the bible contains many ” good ” ways to live your life, what is the purpose of doing so. To avoid eternal damnation. There you go, the underline to your good deeds is to avoid something no one wants. So when you do sin, you are in fear of what might happen. The thought that there is a deity in the sky watching you’re every move is fearful with the belief he sees all.
Just be aware that nothing in this world is more powerful than fear.Not a thing.
The idea of god and religion as a whole to me is just a crutch. To say God will take care of it has become the huggest crutch to many millions of people. ” I need money. God will Take Care of It ” ” I need to pass this test. God Will Take Care of It “. This either goes one or two ways.You simply do nothing in hopes god will do it. Or you actually use your energy to actually achieve the task. But the latter proves it to be all in you all along. All you needed was belief in yourself to do what you needed to do.
Maybe prayers are ways to realize what you need to do. When you talk things out, it always makes more sense. Praying is a way to vent. To hope. We’d all like to believe that someone is going to work things out. So through prayer I suppose, we ourselves mend our own pains. See what I did there. We ourselves, are the key to answering our own prayers(when they pertain to us doing something.when they don’t, it is to assure ourselves the confidence things will work out..although never promised..god or no god )
Just remember
“ “Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? ”
We are who make ourselves to be.
We are our own gods
We are our own devils.
Even if god exists, just remember god had to become god somehow, and I highly doubt it became god by putting everything on another gods shoulders.
Mga ngiting hindi mo kayang basahin. Ang tao, natural yan na masayahin at isa sa paraan para ipakitang masaya siya ay ang aktong pagngiti. Gayunpaman, hindi lahat ng ngiti ay iisa ang ibig sabihin o iisa ang pakahulugan. Iba-iba yan, may totoo, may pakunwari, may natural, may nakakatakot.
- Ngiting may pagmamahal – ito ang pinakamatamis at pinakamasarap sa lahat. Ngiting alam mong may halong pagmamahal. Ito yung ngiting galing sa magulang mo, sa kapatid mo, kamag-anak mo na proud sa’yo. At syempre galing din sa iyong sinisinta. Ito yung ngiting magbibigay-sigla sa iyo sa oras na masilayan mo ang mga ngiting ito.
- Ngiting nakamamatay – killer smile kung tawagin ng nakararami. Ito yung tawag nila sa mga ngiti galing dun sa taong gusto mo. Yung tipong kapag nginitian ka ng crush mo, ay ampupu! luluwag yung garter ng underwear mo. haha. Kaya lang, tandaan, hindi purkit nginitian ka, eh mahal ka na! Marami rin ang naloloko sa mga killer smile na yan. Babae man o lalaki, walang sinasanto.
- Ngiting aso – hindi ko alam kung matutuwa ako rito o maiinis. Pero pakiramdam ko, ito yung ngiti nung mga taong hindi naman palangiti. Para bang ang mga ngiting ito ay yung mga pilit. Hindi mo mawari kung totoong masaya ba o nagpapanggap lang.
- Ngiting kontrabida – mga ngiting dapat mong katakutan. Nanggagaling ito sa mga taong hindi mo tunay na kaibigan. Ito yung tipong kapag nakatalikod ka na, naku po eh may masamang balak pala sa iyo. Nasa mundo tayo ng realidad, kaya totoong may mga ganitong tao makangiti.
- Ngiting manyak – jusko po! kayo na bahala humusga. Ramdam niyo dapat yan lalo na yung mga babae. Mag-iingat kayo, mahal na mahal ko kayo. Haha.
