My Impossible Reality

What is one thing I have accomplished that I never thought I could do?

One would think that I would say “winning The Levi’s Girl contest”, but I knew when I was making the video that I would win. I might be psychic bc I’m not usually very confident.

The only time I faced a task with fear and complete disbelief that I could do it, was in 2008 when I needed to loose weight. After college I got a job and had lots of money, lots of money to go to fancy restaurants. And then I moved in with my boyfriend where every night was date night and I tried to keep up with his bottomless stomach. One day I woke up and didn’t recgonize myself. I was tired of telling people I wasn’t pregnant.

(Needless to say there are little to no photos from this time period. I looked like an Italian Shrek in a velour jumpsuit. The only one I am willing to share is above.)

I had never dieted before, I had no idea what to do. I watched my mother struggle with her weight since I was a really little girl, so dieting always seemed like an impossible task- an idea that goes nowhere.

But I was scared, I didn’t want to look back on my younger years and regret having been fat. So I committed to my diet as though my life depended on it. I admit I may have been a little extreme (dare I say obsessive, or compulsive?) smelling sweets instead of eating them. Once I even dipped a tip of asparagus in cake icing to prove that I didn’t want any. I really had to change the way I thought and take complete responsibility for my actions.

After 6 months I lost 50 pounds and for the most part have kept it off. I am so confident in the power of my mind now. Once there is something I am passionate about, I know I can get it now… perhaps that’s why The Levi’s Girl wasn’t a question in my mind.