some girls tell stories about men who want to fix them
i am not a girl men want to fix
i am not a girl with problems that want to be kissed, sucked on
made to feel
softer
i am a girl who makes wounds like mothers do birthday cakes
i pace over them, i find all the right ways to use a knife
men don’t like this
men want something they can fix
they don’t want the girl who lets the knife slip,
they want someone easy to talk to
they want the girl who doesn’t know what to do when she falls down
but i have died so many times that now i do it on accident
love me & you will see how many halos i have
men want a girl whose dark parts
are easy to enter & exit
but i swallow everything
i’m not safe i’m so
hungry
don’t touch me
Being a Deadhead is like being a professional wine taster and collector. We can tell you the year just by the slightest taste, we all have our favourites and our least favourites. Everyone recognizes a fellow member off the first glance. But most of all, no matter the year, brand, or taste, we all love our wine.
I just shut down
I be shutting down on people
cause I know before anything
the people I want , secretly in love with
the ones I want to pick their special unique brains apart are the ones that care for someone else
the ones I want are so difficult to have
but the ones I’m not interested in
everything comes so easy
ironic , unfair
I just turn off
cause I know
I’m not the one
and nothing hurts more then watching the person you want , yearn for someone else
Thought > Emotion
Here is a simple concept which can save us much grief. Our emotions are a reaction to thought in that they tell us our status relative to our surroundings. Thought says “I lost my new ring”. Emotion says “this is a sad thing and I don’t like it”.
Emotions tend to feel permanent. Even if intellectually we know we’ll get over it, while we are in that moment, it seems that it will never end. This is a self perpetuating phenomena. It keeps us feeling sad and when we start to feel better then the thought pops in and there is another “flood” of emotion, Flood is a perfect word because as it happens ALL emotions are chemically based. This is why chemicals like alcohol can change our mood. We feel the way our chemicals are in any moment.
Now, what is the practical application of this tidbit of neuroscience? Simply put it is when we control thought through self observation we also control emotion. Thoughts are under our “conscious” control. Thoughts make us sad and afraid, they can also make us happy and fearless.
It works both ways.
