this morning's finer points

• last night i dreamed that an entire carton of milk was left on the bathroom floor (???) overnight, and that swarms of little mice had gotten into our house.  thinking that they’d react like millipedes, i told dream-j to flick the lights on.  instead of running to the shadows, the mice rushed the bed and created a mouse-blanket that enveloped me.  i woke up in a cold sweat, completely twisted beneath our thick fuzzy black blanket.  also, we don’t normally buy milk in paper cartons, nor do we drink it in/leave it in the bathroom…
• tomorrow’s the big day!  i’m really nervous, but i’m also excited at the prospect of living my normal life again.  i keep feeling scared that after the surgery, it will be revealed that my problems stem from elsewhere, and that i still will be sick and unable to eat.
• to boost my spirits, j bought me a tiny white bear.  i’ve named him posy, and crocheted him a little green bow-tie.  it’s obviously a spirit bear.