Yeah just posting this for my new page too~
I was promised happiness in a bottle whilst dreaming of better days when I wasn’t so troubled.
I was told that as long as I looked good in this dress, It didn’t matter if I felt depressed.
Bliss in the form of a tube of mascara. A painted face for the enemies I tried to impress.
I was known for my smeared lipstick and runny mascara.
My only friend, my index finger, knew it best.
You could find me in the mirror pondering my thoughts.
These melancholy feelings never seized to catch up.
A beauty I was but it was never enough.
Nobody really cared until clothes were undone.
The girls knew all about it and the boys experienced it all.
15 and all grown up, nowadays a promise is just a word.
Spinning. Spinning. Spinning.
I closed my eyes to try and make it stop but it wouldn’t let me.
So I spun and spun into this web of lies, masks, and cries for help.
How did I get here?
I don’t remember.
All I know is that I hated the spinning but it wouldn’t let me be.
Just like the thoughts.
Why won’t they just let me be huh?
I made out with a four last night.
Who knew people could make out with numbers?
But I did.
I told him to kiss my neck.
I kinda like being in control in those kinds of situations if you know what I mean.
It’s 8.15am and I can’t sleep.
Maybe its because I’m still a little buzzed and don’t want this feeling to go away.
Or maybe its just cause I can’t go back to sleep knowing all that happened last night.
Which is probably what’s going to happen tomorrow night.
And the next night.
And the next.
Caution : Written while tired.
I want to smile and hold your hand
Because I know the small things count.
One strand of hair means more
Than the entire human being.
And I know you don’t understand,
How could you?
But it makes a difference.
If that one strand of hair were one shade darker,
Well,
The whole world could change,
Couldn’t it?
My motto for life.♥
Don’t wait for time, make it.
Don’t wait for love, feel it.
Don’t wait for money, earn it.
Don’t wait for a path, find it.
Don’t wait for an opportunity, make one.
Don’t go for less, get the best.
Don’t compare, be different
Don’t fight your misfortune, transform it.
Don’t avoid failure, use it.
Don’t dwell on a mistake, Learn from it.
Don’t back down, step up.
Don’t close your eyes, open your mind.
Don’t from life, embrace it.
