this was the first serious conversation we had. i don't think he could have gotten to know me better any other way
Choose a color, the first color that comes to mind. Once you have your color, list 3 adjectives that best describe it. Choose an animal, the first animal that comes to mind. Once you have your animal, list 3 adjectives that best describe it. Choose a body of water. (EXAMPLE: lake, river, ocean, etc.) List 3 adjectives that best describe the body of water. Now, I want you to close your eyes and picture yourself in a white room. There are no windows in the room. There are no doors. The walls are white. The ceiling is white. The floor is white. There is a chair in the center of the room, it is white. Open your eyes and list 3 adjectives that describe the way you are feeling * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * Your color represents the way you see yourself. Your animal represents the way you think others see you. The body of water represents the way you see yourself sexually. The white room represents your view of death.
Just hear me out.
I’m a fucking virgin, and there’s nothing wrong with that.
First off, I am a private person and it seems like the topic of sex isn’t always so private anymore. As much as I like to announce my period pains and express the amount of comfort I have with myself and my body, my sex life isn’t something I like to shout out. Which is why this issue is very dear to me if I am announcing it here.
I am fed up.
It seems like sex is being thrown around too comfortably and done to routinely for some people. I don’t get offended easily, but I will secretly plot your death if you start to lecture me about how I should “try something new.” Obviously, I am very stubborn if I had more than 3 people come talk to me about this issue and I still do not give a fuck. Go ahead and humor me about how much I am missing out because I can assure you that I am not.
The issue here is that I feel like I am being judged everytime this is brought up. One’s sexuality isn’t something to flaunt about but for the longest time and even until now I feel almost ashamed for being a virgin. Do you know how sad that is? People look at you differently because you still have not had sex. People encourage you to try it when they see how sad your life is supposedly. This society is making me feel like an outcast for my lack of sexual activity and even peer pressuring me to do it. Society has even made me feel like something was wrong with me, like I am not normal. For the longest time, I believed that I was asexual, not that there’s anything wrong with that. I just felt like I didn’t fit in with what society wanted from me.
Everytime somebody lectures me they offend me greatly. Everytime they do, I cry. I feel ashamed at myself for not having the bravery or the will to produce a simple human task. But I know I that I am remaining loyal to myself. And besides, everyone has different priorities. I do not value sex as much as I do the finer things of life (food, love family). I will not do anything until I am ready and no other fucking person in this world can have a right to say anything about it.
