How long will she pretend.
She once was with a man she loved more than she had ever loved before it was as if her chest could barely contain her heart. They were happy but he was troubled and she could not forget of what he’d done and one day he left her and he bruised her badly. She spent almost a year picking up the pieces he had shattered of her and she finally felt better. She could feel the sunshine on her skin again, hear the birds sing for it was as if she had been hibernating ever since that dreadful day. She felt as if she could be acquaintances with him again so she decided that it was time to put the past behind her. So she did. She became friends with him again and she was happy. But for each day that went by she knew something was wrong inside her, she could feel a darkness closing in but she told herself that it was just the past haunting her. One day she realized that she could truly never stop loving him that her heart was truly his and she knew not of how to stop. Her love, she knew, was bound to him and even though she had had some other men in her life she could never forget him. She had told herself that she was no longer in love with him but she could not lie to herself any longer. She accepted that this was what the universe had intended for her. To be a bit of both worlds. Happy and unhappy. She knew she would never get his hand again and she knew he did not feel the same and as much as it scarred her heart, she would not leave this time. But she knew not what to do the day it all hit her. She thought of all the tales she had heard of how love, how true low persists through everything. Then she knew… She knew she could not change her destiny. She knew she will have to find another man but she also knew that her heart would always belong to him. As sad as the tale sounds it is the truth. No one can change what a heart truly longs for. He was simply that one other soul she connected to more than anything before. Many has told her that she will forget him. That one day she will come across another man who will sweep her off her feet however she knows where her heart truly lies. She must decide how to contain herself. She will certainly have some days where it all seems gloomy and dark but those are limited. She knows she will survive because that is what life and love has taught her.
“ “It will change a lot, actually. I don’t really know this side of you yet, I can’t exactly trust it. Also, since you refuse to say what you’re going to do, or how long it will take you that just adds to my concern. We don’t keep secrets, Houston. So you’re either going to tell me what the fuck is going on or I’ll just have to find out for myself. Oh, and by the way I’m pregnant.”
—Sephira
What are you doing?
What are you doing. You know his heart is no where near in it as you so desperately try to believe it is. You know he will never actually want you even though he once did. You know he has a girlfriend, yet you somehow keep forgetting that fact and still feel that little familiar feeling of gladness inside. Which then disappears the moment you remember how reality looks like. You know that when he goes to bed at night he does not give you one thought. Yet you often dream about him even though you don’t want to. Even when you come home from work you check if he is available to talk, yet he is often with his girlfriend and does not have time for you at all. Why can’t you see it? Why won’t you see it? Here you are staying up yet another night for far too long just because you enjoy his company, his voice, his everything. When will you learn? When will you once again let go? Wake up little girl your dream is a nightmare, now see it.
- © sugarcoateddoll.tumblr.com
I can’t believe that in two days (13.07.11) I will be sitting
at the cinema watching the very last Harry Potter movie.
I cried reading the last book (and several other books) and
I am going to weep a lot this Wednesday too, eeeeeep.
I can’t wait to watch it, I can’t wait to see how they are going
to create some of the scenes that in my head are so amazing!
But oh how I will miss Harry Potter… The universe… The story…
The characters… It was such a magical journey and I love(d) it.
Adeus ao wydiano Vinicius
Vinicius sempre teve um sorriso fácil, tão fácil quanto ele conseguia trocar de servidor, nick, montaria, armas e armaduras, mas acredito, que sua maior facilidade estava em fazer e manter os amigos.
Embora eu o conhecesse como Tk-Bell, Vinicius tinha outros nicks como CellYMar, -McViniciuS-, LEANDRORS e acredito que tenha alcançado seu sonho de se tornar um celestial como KarnelPanic.
Embora sendo um mundo virtual, mitológico e palco de grandes batalhas, o WYD nos proporcionou conhecer esse garoto incrível, que dividia conosco, anseios, vitórias, derrotas e até mesmo, suas lágrimas, com a morte do seu pai.
Hoje, somos nós que choramos, mas que no fundo brindamos à sua nova vida.
Vinícius sofreu um acidente de moto e veio a falecer em 19 de janeiro de 2011, deixando uma família saudosa e grandes amigos que não verão mais o Continente de Kersef, da mesma forma.
A missa de um mês será realizada amanhã (19 de fevereiro) às 17h na Igreja do Morro da Conceição, em Recife.
