our story..

we met hir ..

i known him from a common friend of mine..

at first we didnt bother to care for each other..

for me kasi, he’s ‘suplado’..

then, he became close to our circle of friends..

one day, i thought of writing a note for him..

saying i can also be his friend ..

he got my number from a friend to say thank you..

then, thats the start of our friendship..

although he’s shy at office, we acted like we still don’t

know each other..

we call each other ‘smile’.. we constantly exchange

text message from that day on..

christmas party is coming, at first i have no plan to attend

because we need to wear formal attires for the event..

but he ask me to go, and me his ‘partner’ for that night..

unluckily, i had a fever the whole day.. my friends

suggested me not to go to the party.. but i still want to..

because of him.. i dont want to spare the chance to be with him..

what a wonderful night..

i bid him goodbye at around 12 midnight..

coz i have to go home to rest..

that was one of happiest night of my life..

we have that ‘special connection’..

but we have to hide that from the crowd..

also from our office..

our ‘special connection’ just became deeper and deeper

with each day passing..

valentines day came.. he gave me something to

remember to..

also this flower.. as a surprise gift.. how sweet of him..

we became ‘we’ officially january 28..

our first month anniversary was special for me..

he gave me a bouquet of flower, 

a special dinner,

and a lighter..

(the one he gave me was marlboro black lighter)

i brought him a toy motorcycle coz he dreamt of having

one..

at first all came smooth.. not to mention the

‘chismis’ in our office about us.. but we used to

overcome those..

a major turning point came, i need to transfer in other department

to be a company nurse..

we face it as a challenge to our relationship..

knowing we can still be ‘us’ despite the distance.. and

the adjustments we have to face..

with a promise that nothing will change..

thats the first time i saw him crying.. and sad..

‘we just need to open our communication..

and see to it that we will still see each other

every once in a while..’ is what we promised..

our 2nd month anniversary, i reported

as a company nurse.. he fenced me and we

have dinner before my night shift..

i gave a couple shirt as a gift for us..

as expected, we had fights(as usual).. but we fixed them up right

away..

but i consider the issue with my past was the most of all..

i try to win his trust again.. but many things stopped

us from patching things up..

he lose his interest on me.. on our relationship..

in short.. he became ‘cold’..

as if i don’t know him at all..

we still have exchanged text messages and calls..

but i can feel the ‘unresolved problem’..

we try to disregard things knowing it would help..

but it isn’t..

i start losing hope.. and decided to end to relationship..

the decision was hard for me.. and ive seen that he

took the decision hard too.. but i really want to know

the true reason for his coldness..

until he also give in..

until now i still love him..

missing him.. but he seemed far away..

and seemed over me..

i have to accept that fact..

and move on with my life..

‘i regret how we have drifted apart,

but i never regret what we had’