doors by michael johnson
What can I say besides Im sorry
What can I say to change your mind
Why do I keep on holding on
A chance you’ll walk back through the door
When my heart knows there’s no hope anymore
Why do there have to be doors
(backgrond song ni papa jack)
haisst.. what can i say or do.. =(
we met hir ..
i known him from a common friend of mine..
at first we didnt bother to care for each other..
for me kasi, he’s ‘suplado’..
then, he became close to our circle of friends..
one day, i thought of writing a note for him..
saying i can also be his friend ..
he got my number from a friend to say thank you..
then, thats the start of our friendship..
although he’s shy at office, we acted like we still don’t
know each other..
we call each other ‘smile’.. we constantly exchange
text message from that day on..
christmas party is coming, at first i have no plan to attend
because we need to wear formal attires for the event..
but he ask me to go, and me his ‘partner’ for that night..
unluckily, i had a fever the whole day.. my friends
suggested me not to go to the party.. but i still want to..
because of him.. i dont want to spare the chance to be with him..
what a wonderful night..
i bid him goodbye at around 12 midnight..
coz i have to go home to rest..
that was one of happiest night of my life..
we have that ‘special connection’..
but we have to hide that from the crowd..
also from our office..
our ‘special connection’ just became deeper and deeper
with each day passing..
valentines day came.. he gave me something to
also this flower.. as a surprise gift.. how sweet of him..
we became ‘we’ officially january 28..
our first month anniversary was special for me..
he gave me a bouquet of flower,
a special dinner,
and a lighter..
(the one he gave me was marlboro black lighter)
i brought him a toy motorcycle coz he dreamt of having
at first all came smooth.. not to mention the
‘chismis’ in our office about us.. but we used to
a major turning point came, i need to transfer in other department
to be a company nurse..
we face it as a challenge to our relationship..
knowing we can still be ‘us’ despite the distance.. and
the adjustments we have to face..
with a promise that nothing will change..
thats the first time i saw him crying.. and sad..
‘we just need to open our communication..
and see to it that we will still see each other
every once in a while..’ is what we promised..
our 2nd month anniversary, i reported
as a company nurse.. he fenced me and we
have dinner before my night shift..
i gave a couple shirt as a gift for us..
as expected, we had fights(as usual).. but we fixed them up right
but i consider the issue with my past was the most of all..
i try to win his trust again.. but many things stopped
us from patching things up..
he lose his interest on me.. on our relationship..
in short.. he became ‘cold’..
as if i don’t know him at all..
we still have exchanged text messages and calls..
but i can feel the ‘unresolved problem’..
we try to disregard things knowing it would help..
but it isn’t..
i start losing hope.. and decided to end to relationship..
the decision was hard for me.. and ive seen that he
took the decision hard too.. but i really want to know
the true reason for his coldness..
until he also give in..
until now i still love him..
missing him.. but he seemed far away..
and seemed over me..
i have to accept that fact..
and move on with my life..
‘i regret how we have drifted apart,
but i never regret what we had’
cold summer nights..
I keep on blaming my self
I should have eaten my pride
How can I convince you
It’s just a matter of time
Many times I’ve hurt you
With my foolish ways oh girl
Now I know I have to pay the price
Is there a way for you to turn around,
Turn around and come back baby
Ohh baby can’t you see…
It’s been cold summer nights since we drifted apart
Cold summer nights since you walked out that door
Cold summer nights… oh, here on my own
Coz I miss you baby, I need you here