i’m slowly becoming more self-reliant. i’m not depending so much on one person or a few people for happiness. i’m starting to like myself. i realized today how terribly petty it is to get upset when a boy can’t see you that night, or gives you a one word reply.
girls are so dumb. but i mean, i was one of those girls.
i’m done needing someone else to be my mood ring.
i am my happiness factor, no one else.
Alone, she sits in her tower, no longer the scared little girl she was, now a bitter woman. Her mother had told her a prince would save her, where was he? She cuts her hair and pieces of her past that she wants no one to see. She won’t wait any longer to be saved, she’ll rescue herself. Once her heart ached as she paced in her tiny world, no more, no more, she decided as she felt the short ends of her hair. Upon a rope made of torn bed sheets and curtains, she descends from her tower, no longer prisoner of her own accord.
The sun bathes her and her skin feels too tight. She’s too far from the home she’d known all these years, too far to feel the restriction of expectations. She touches the center of her chest, what’s this? It feels so foreign and new. It bubbles up and she feels muscles in her face relax, she’s smiling. After so long!
She looks about her, so many paths, so many chances, so many possibilities.
She stops, laughter threatening to spill from her, she’s afraid to let it out. What if it won’t come back? She takes a deep breath and lets it soar free; a heavy weight has been lifted from her chest.
She is her laughter.
She is, after long last, free.
Girls in your 20's
Don’t be in hurry to find the right guy, and don’t fear being that girl who marries after 30. Good men are hard to find. Most are pigs and cheaters, partly because it is in their biology. As time goes on guys won’t be controlled by the lizard brain.
If you have dreamt about your wedding day since you were a little girl, don’t worry it will come. When it does come it is one day and goes by very fast and then you start married life. Typically all the months leading up to it are filled with stress, parents want to give their input because they are paying for most of it. You have mull over not inviting those certain relatives. Feelings are hurt and people cry and complain about it.
If you are a girl in your 20’s invest in yourself, build the best you. Become self reliant and learn your strength, it will pay off later in life.
When get older they ditch their wife for younger women, so take your time and find the right guy that you can spend the rest of your life with.
Not Happy With Someone?
Ask yourself, what is it I’m thinking about you that I am using as my excuse to not allow myself to be who I really am?
When you say “what are you doing that makes me unhappy?” gives that person all the power because they have to do something different to make you happy.
- With love, Louise Hay.