Okay, so I've been on this high since yesterday because of the Marianas Trench show. BUT...

I can’t help but feel so worried about all of this. Then again, I know I’m not the only one.
Of course, it was an amazing show, there was no doubt about it…

It was cut short because poor Josh just could not take it. I think there’s a lot to be said about this band for what happened last night. I usually hate singling out band members, but for Josh especially, this said so much about what he does for a living and who he does it for. If he did this for himself, there would have been no way in hell he just canceled the show and slept it off. But he does this for all of us. He was in the hospital - I know all of you trenchers out there know this - and he even told us he thought about canceling the show for the night. But he sucked it up and played for us anyway?! What the hell does that say about how much he cares about his fans? He was risking his safety and overall health & wellness for us. Fucking crazy bastard (in a good way, of course). And to last as long as he did, 9 out of the intended 13 songs, I have to give the man serious credit. I have never seen so much dedication out of one person so close to passing out. Poor Josh couldn’t even stand up after 2 or 3 songs.

I think the part that really hit me the hardest though - I really really wish I got this on camera - was when they performed All to Myself. There was a good part of the song where Josh sat down and looked like he was about to stop breathing. He couldn’t sing and it seemed as if he was going to fall right off that stool they brought out for him. He just sat there like everything was spinning. And what did the crowd do? Sang. We fucking sang like it was our job. We sang every goddamn word that Josh couldn’t bring himself to say. And when he opened his eyes and smiled, everything just hit me.

It may sound really cheesy, but I can only imagine how he must have felt right then and there - hearing all of us sing the way we were. It had to be the cutest, most heartwarming thing I have ever seen. Josh Ramsay was sitting up there about to blackout, and all these kids in a country that they’re headlining for the first time are singing his very own words right back to him. It must have been the greatest feeling in the world to know that you have fans in a country who doesn’t even know who you are, that you have people screaming at you to take a break from performing if you couldn’t take it, and to just be loved like that by a shitton of strangers for what you do. As physically shitty as he must have been feeling, I say well job, trenchers. We really showed him what he and the rest of Marianas Trench really means to us.

Though he was the only one of the boys I did not meet, I’m glad he cut the show and took some down time. He really needs it. I know canceling the show tonight probably bummed everyone out, but look at it this way, Josh needs his rest and needs to get better. I know they’ll make it up to us, but let’s just be supportive of what he really needs right now.

Feel better, Josh.
We know Mike, Matt, and Ian will take care of you.
Xoxo.
From all your loving Trenchers.