The 3 Rs: Rethinking, Reviewing and Ranting.
I just needed somewhere to get this all down.
Maybe musical theatre isn’t for me. I mean, I love it. But. I’m just not sure anymore. I’m not sure my personality is suited for that life. For one thing, I don’t enjoy pressure. And I would get a ridiculous amount of it all my life if I chose that path. There are so many amazingly talented people out there. And I’m just not sure I’m passionate enough about theatre to hope to compete with them. I know what my voice teacher would tell me right now. She’d tell me I was just scared, and giving up. Am I just giving up? Or thinking realistically? Finding a job would be so stressful and I would be in a constant state on anxiety about my next one. And I would be moving around tons. Which I’m not sure if I would like that or not. But on the other hand. I love musical theatre. So much. All the nuances of it make me so happy. And there’s a part of me I’m not afraid to show when I’m on stage. Becoming another person and expressing who they are through music is just so magical. And I feel like singing is what I’m best at doing. But realistically, I really could be happy doing something else as well. I could go into music recording. Be a yoga instructor. Become a songwriter. But would I feel fulfilled just by writing it down? Or bitter that I wouldn’t be performing it?
And now I have to choose between two shows. By tomorrow. One show I’m already in. The other show I have been invited to come back to, but there’s no guarantee I’ll be chosen. I’ve already accepted a role in the first show and it would be bad taste to drop out for the other show, plus I absolutely love the director and don’t want him to believe I’m shortchanging him. On the other hand, this other show I have the chance to be in is an equity show and would look good on my resume. And when I participated in it this summer, I met tons of great people, I was pushed really hard and had sort of an emotional breakthrough. BUT, the show I’ve already said I will be in is SUCH a fun show and I love the people in it, too. If I were completely sure I wanted to do musical theatre with my life, I would of course choose the equity show. But now that I’m questioning. I just have no idea. I’m so torn.
I have too many choices before me, too many paths I could take. It’s overwhelming. I know I should be thankful for the fact that I have the opportunity to do whatever I want in life, or at least try. And I am. It’s just bittersweet. And there are a lot of forms chocolate can come in.
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Making Your Backup Schedules Work When You Don't
Stock image courtesy of Dheeraj Gupta
This week we’re throwing down the gauntlet on a practice that many backup operators and administrators still implement today. We’re talking about the weekend backup regime.
Logically it makes sense to schedule backup operations at the quietest time of the week for many businesses. We concern ourselves with the impact of a full backup operation on the end user and perceived or actual performance degradation that may occur if we tie up our servers or network infrastructure with large data movement operations.
Are we clouding our own judgement with unwarranted concern for minimizing the visibility of IT Department operations to management and staff?
With today’s data growth rates reaching more than 50% year on year according to a recent study titled The Digital Universe Decade - Are You Ready? commissioned by EMC in May 2010, businesses are finding it harder to manage and protect information. As the cost of storage decreases, the rate at which we create information increases correspondingly and protecting this information becomes an onerous challenge. Permabit’s Wayne Salpietro covered this very concisely in his blog post on the widening data affordability gap
Previously we’ve discussed strategies that can aid in reducing backup windows and storage footprint and we were keen to revisit the former again in another post on improving data protection performance. This week though we wanted to focus on a tradition we believe needs re-thinking.
Hey I hope you read this.
This is to put out all my feelings. I really, really hope that this stops. Like the boring conversations, acting like we don’t know each other. We have so much and one week shouldn’t break it. I want to be yours. Like the person who you can talk to of youre hurt or sad or just to talk about your day. I want to have these moments of laughing, joking, and just having fun. The stuff we already have. I love being with you, even after small insults and comments. Being with you is kinda like air… Hard to live without it. Even If you say no to us in the future, I’ll keep my promise to stay your bestfriend and support you. But even now, I still want to be something more, and I hope you do too. Please be mine.
would like am working on changing in my life:
- caring less about things that absolutely do not matter
- caring more about things that do matter (re: family, school work, the way i spend my time, fun)
- being more outgoing toward the people i want, and cutting the bullshit to the people that i do not
- being more honest with myself regarding what i do and do not want, like, need, etc.
- reading more!
- letting go of things, general acceptance
- much much much more yoga