In A Slump.

I’m in a perfectly beautiful slump of nothing. Moving didn’t jump start it as a I believed so now I don’t know what to do. I’ve down here for month and no job and now I don’t have a car anymore because my roommate crashed it; so I have to change my license for a Florida one, get new insurance which will cost so much (I don’t even want to think about it.) and above all find and buy a new car. I sit at home pretty much all day trying to find a job by online applying places but who knows if that even works. I was hoping to get a job by February but I don’t think that is going to happen. Reality is far from what you dream and picture of, who knows when everything start again. If I was home in NY I would be starting the second semester of the year tomorrow. I know I don’t want to be doing that either but the way was already drawn out for me. What is safe and what do you want, those two are far from even being close. We all hope to live within the stars in the sky like we were told when we were young and believed anything and everything but we all know now as we grow up its not true. Very few even get close to those stars we stare at everyday from the ground wishing for another life, another try, and another hope. We all work so hard to make ends meet but at the final stages of life did it matter? Who really knows? I certainly don’t. I just hope as I lay on my death bed that everything I’ve done in my life was worth it and I don’t regret nothing. I just hope for a fighting chance to get there to make it all worth it. Don’t you?