So the other night I drunkenly wrote a post ( it’s never good when I do that). I was having some mixed feelings about a boy I used to date. I was going to delete it but I figured I would keep it, I’ve (soberly) thought about it all… And this is my conclusion:
-yes, in the past week I have thought about you more than I have in a long time. It was hard to not talk to you for five months, and then out of no where you say hello. At first I was happy, and then I started feeling this longing- and I was missing you. But I think it’s the pure fact that you were my best friend and you will be able to make me the laugh until the day I die. And I miss that. I’m finally used to being on my own- it took me a while to let the thought of you go… But I now accept you are no longer mine. I can also accept the fact that you belong to someone else ( I really wish you would actually tell me about her, but maybe some day you will). I can accept that. But I don’t think I can accept not talking to you for five months. I didn’t know where we stood- I didn’t know if you hated me, thought I was crazy, or just didn’t care to have any kind of relationship- so I just waited for you to talk to me… But after talking the few times we have this week I believe that you might miss talking to me the way that I have missed talking to you. I know us talking will be more of a rare occurrence than a common one- but I will accept that. I’ve missed you, and I will always such a strong connection with you. The point is I am finally at a good place with you. I feel if I would see you tomorrow I would give you a big hug and ask you how’s it going? I don’t believe it would be awkward. We would probably and talk and laugh and then part ways. I feel so much more comfortable when I hear your name, and for the first time In a long time I feel like If I needed to talk, you’d be there… So thank you for finally taking the first move and ask me how I was doing.
So that’s how I feel. I’m pretty happy with everything right now…it’s finally Like a breath of fresh air.
TR FERNANDEZ 'QUALIFIED LIVE LIVING' EP
Shouts to MTV Wrap-Up for the feature:
“TR Fernandez is set to do big things in 2012; last year saw him being named as ‘One to Watch’ by DJ Target on his BBC 1Xtra UK Homegrown show, following the video release of ‘Respect My Aura’…
Now the London-bred artist is back with his first self-released project, an EP entitled ‘Qualified Life Living’. The 10-track EP features some of the most respected emerging rappers within the ‘Shoreditch scene’ and his delivery undoubtedly sets him apart from the rest. TR’s distinctive writing style is also winning and will surely see him gain real momentum well into 2013’s festival season.”