I got myself into a sticky situation. I have this life problem that is not easy to have the answers for and it’s just and overall difficult hurdle, no easy answer floating in my mind to overcome it right now.
It isn’t just my problem and it is also affecting others in my life, and I had been doing a really good job of staying in a positive mind space regardless of the situation, that doesn’t mean that I was not being affected by the problem I was, I was just choosing to do what I know, and what I know is that you don’t need to get caught up in bad situations.
But everyone around me was really down, and this was getting hard for me to stay strong through because it had been going on for some time and I was using all of my energy to stay on top and I felt that I was carrying it all on my shoulders. I also was starting to feel that I was being judged as emotionless, like I felt as though I was expected to be miserable and all of this just was too much for me, so guess what I did? I stayed strong? NOPE I gave in! I fell off my golden stallion and my white dress was covered in mud. I was gone.
So for 3 days I was a negative miserable person, I had thoughts running through my head like “this situation is hopeless” “i’m so miserable” ” there is no way out’ and as I would think these thoughts I was still conscious of what they were doing, as I thought them they would go click! click! click! in my mind and next minute they became my reality.
So I stayed in this black mass, things were getting worse around me, just little things but they seemed bigger to me at the time, I was overtaken by the situation of my problems, I was hopeless.
Then I woke up one morning, and I was like ummmm Jessica!! Hello?? are you in there??? have a look at your life ! have a look at yourself! go have a candle lit bath and take care of your beautiful self. So I did.
I really learnt a lesson from this, and that lesson is to listen and to trust myself, to not let myself fall off my horse no matter how hard a situation is. You can’t solve a problem vibrating at the same level that it was created. For example you cannot become the lighter HAPPY vibration by being the dense MISERABLE vibration, it just doesn’t work that way.
Being somewhat detached from situations does not mean that you are emotionless or that you do not care, it means that you can act responsibly to what is before you instead of getting caught in it.
That is the difference between being in the 3rd dimension and the 4th, it is how you react, what you think and the vibration that you keep.
I will not live in the icky sticky 3rd dimension.
So even though my problems are still not solved, I mean, how could they of been in the state I got myself into? at least I can now think clear, I can still carry a positive vibration because I have trust in the universe and trust in myself that everything will work out in perfect divine order.
So stay positive through all :)
I’d like to take today to point out three things that are of some interest. One is a nice bit of optimism, one is a troubling choice I’ll need to make, and the last is just a minor detail.
First, I’ve noticed that it’s been getting very easy to start writing each day. Before this month started I had to work myself out of procrastination to actually get around to writing what I need to do, and once I start I just plod through making the minimal amount of effort. But now it takes much less to get me started, and then once I start I can continue writing effortlessly. What I actually write may remain at the same level of quality, but the act of writing I’m finding to be easier.
Next is something that is of concern to me, but perhaps should be moreso for you. First is that I am really liking what I’ve written so far, and I dare say it’s the best work I’ve written, well, ever. With that said, I’ve seriously considered wanting to publish Weeping Mary; the concept is great and the actual words are some of my best, and I think it would be a shame to not share it with the broader aspects of the world, and not just the few people who manage to stumble on this blog. But there’s an issue with that and the fact I’ve been sharing all of my progress online: it is my understanding that works readily available online seldom get published. The reasoning makes sense: why should a publishing company bother money, time, and other resources to publish a book for people to buy, when those people can just find it for free online? Because of this little fact, if I ever want to get Weeping Mary published, then I have to stop sharing its progress. This is where I’m conflicted: honestly, the fact that I’ve been doing so well so far (I’m nearly three days ahead of schedule) is because of this blog. Even though it’s not much, the idea that people are reading this and the little “X has liked your post” have been a great source of inspiration for me, but if I stop sharing then that motivation goes away. In addition, if I stop sharing my progress than I’ll feel like I’ve betrayed you, my readers, into abruptly cutting off the story. Granted, I’ve already done that in the past (Azalea and Brink), but in those cases I still planned to continue them at some point; if I stop updating Weeping Mary then that’s it, no more updates for you to read. There’s also the further issue that there is no guarantee of publication; I could stop updating and end up not getting published anyway. Who knows, maybe the amount I’ve already shared could be enough to disbar Weeping Mary from publication. I honestly do not yet know where to go with this issue, and I’ll still think about it. I just wanted to share this problem with you, and you have any ideas or suggestions don’t be afraid to say so!
Lastly is that today’s word count landed on 18381 exactly. That happens to be a palindrome, and it’s note-worthy because I didn’t intend to land on it or anything. I just finished writing for the day, checked the word count, and it was all “oh, hey, it’s a palindrome!”.
Riddle Me This
This isn’t a riddle, more of a thought provoking problem that needs solving. I just always wanted to say that. I would love for all of you wonderfully imaginable inhabitants of tumblr to offer your solutions.
Here’s the problem:
You are visiting a strange country in which there are just two kinds of people— truthtellers and liars. Truthtellers always tell the truth and liars always lie. You hail the first two people you meet and say, “Are you truthtellers or liars?” The first person mumbles something you can’t hear. The second says, “He says he is a truthteller. He is a truthteller and so am I.” Can you trust the directions that these two may give you?
1. Trust Nobody and leave the country.
2. It’s a strange country so why not take their directions and explore.
3. First ask if they like cats. Second, find a cat. Third, hand cat to each one individually. If they said yes and freak out, then they are liars. If they said no and freak out, they are truthtellers.
4. How do we know what the first man mumbled? For all we know he could have mumbled, “I like tacos.”
5. Find a GPS or map.
These are mine. Now I want to hear from you.