JED. (Okay para matapos na to.)

Kilala niyo ba si :

babyjejed, bearnajeddy & yun-oh-jedmapagmahal?

Kung oo, basahin niyo to.

Matagal na kaming nagdududa kung totoo ba si Jed. Simula pa lang hindi ko na siya pinagkakatiwalaan. There’s something really fishy about that guy. Lalo na nung hindi siya sumipot sa usapan nila ni Mai nung New Year na sinundan pa ng sunud-sunod na pang-iindian niya. Lagi na lang may excuses. Hindi lang yun, he never agreed to have a live video chat with us. Nakakasura na. Nagbubulag-bulagan na lang that time si Mai. Pero ako, I wanted to know the truth. I know she did too. Kaya ako na mismo yung nag-message dun daw sa totoong “Jed.”

May link si Mai dun sa facebook ng totoong “Jed.” Since minsan lang siya mag-update ng fb, we didn’t know kung sino ba sa kanila yung totoo. The real name of the guy in the pictures (as they said) is Ramon. But we knew him by the name Jed. Mai told me that she messaged that guy once. Pero hindi nagreply. Kaya hindi namin alam kung sino talaga yung totoo. Malay ba namin baka may naninira lang kay “Jed.” Pero hindi pa rin talaga ako mapakali. That’s why I came to a decision to message that guy again. I wasn’t hoping for a reply since sinabi na nga ni Mai na hindi nagreply sa message niya.

FEBRUARY 5, 2013

I was on the phone with Mai. She was crying again because of that stupid guy. I didn’t know what to do that time. I wanted to curse that guy so badly. I want to punch him in the face, kick him in the ass. But what can I do? We don’t even know if he truly exists. 

Kinagabihan, when I checked my fb account may 1 new message. When I checked it, there was Ramon’s reply. Nagulantang talaga ako that time but I didn’t tell Mai about it. Ayokong dagdagan yung pag-iyak niya nung araw na yun. And besides, I wasn’t sure yet. Kung may sasabihin man ako sa kanya, gusto ko, totoo. Gusto ko, ako mismo yung nakadiskubre.

Nagpakilala bilang girlfriend nung Ramon yung nag-reply sakin sa fb.Ito siya with “Ramon.”

She asked for my number para mas mapag-usapan pa namin yung issue. Binigay ko naman. The whole night, we were talking about Ramon, Jed and Mai. Nagpakilala ako na bestfriend ni Mai. It was okay since ang bait and approachable naman niya. 

FEBRUARY 6, 2013

I asked her kung sino ba talaga yung totoo. Then she told me na si Ramon yung totoo. I told her na ayoko munang maniwala kasi malay ko ba kung ano yung totoo. That’s why she asked me if I wanted to meet with her to know the truth. I know it’s risky and completely insane after all, she’s a complete stranger to me. But still, I agreed to meet with her. It was for the best— or so I thought.

Malapit lang naman yung schools namin. 1 PM ang call time. Sa Mendiola ang meeting place. 11:30 yung dismissal ko that time. I waited for her text bago ako pumunta ng Mendiola. Nung nag-text na siya, me and a friend were on our way to Mendiola. First tumambay muna kami sa Mcdo. Inantay pa namin siya. I didn’t know what to feel that time. Hindi ko naman kasi talaga sila kakilala. I didn’t know what might happen. Pero desidido kasi talaga ako. Ginusto ko yun at paninindigan ko talaga. I had mixed emotions that time. Kinakabahan ako pero I knew He was with me. And dadalhin Niya ako kung sa ano ang totoo. Nag-text siya na nasa labas na daw siya ng Mcdo, lumabas kami. I saw her then sumunod kami sa kanya. Dun kami sa 1st street. It was akward at first. Hindi naman kasi kami kakilala nung kabarkada nila. Then she told me, “Wait lang. Sunduin ko si Mon.” So we waited.

And when she was walking back to us, I was shocked. Sobrang nagulantang ako. Hindi ko alam kung ano dapat yung magiging reaksyon ko. My friend asked me, “Ano girl? Siya ba yun?” And I was like, “Shit. Oo. Siya nga.”

Nung mga oras na yun, ito lang yung nasa isip ko.

TANGINA. ETO SI JED. ANDITO SA HARAPAN KO. TANGINA LANG TALAGA.

Lumapit silang dalawa tapos pinakilala kami ni ate sa kanya. We sat for a while to discuss about “Jed.” Maraming napag-usapan. Maraming nasagot. Marami akong nalaman. Habang kausap ko sila, hindi pa rin ako maka-move on. Shit. Si Jed— este si Ramon nasa harapan ko. Tangina. Ito yung lumalandi sa bestfriend ko. Teka, hindi pala siya yun. Picture lang niya yung gamit nun. I asked them about the issue and they told me na matagal na daw silang may naririnig about dun. Hindi lang nila pinapatulan. Pero nung nalaman na may nililigawan na pala at may nasasaktan na, it was time to break their silence. Kaya pala niya ako nireplyan. I was grateful. Buti na lang mababait sila. Kahit hindi nila kami kakilala, inentertain pa rin nila kami. Lalong lalo na yung tanong na Kung sino ba talaga yung totoo.

For proof, we took a picture. Para kapag ready na daw akong sabihin kay Mai, may maipapakita ako.

Ganyan yung itsura ko kasi hindi pa rin ako makapaniwala sa nalaman ko.

Nung umalis na ako, I kept on thinking kung sasabihin ko ba kay Mai yung totoo or not. Nasa kalagitnaan ako ng biyahe pauwi nung napag-isipan ko na she deserved to know the truth. Namura pa nga niya ako nung nagdalawang isip ako kung sasabihin ko sa kanya. And when I finally told her, parang wala lang. She took it calmly. Laking pasasalamat ko naman at kalmado siya. Pero I know na hindi pa rin siya okay.

Minura ako ni Mai nung nalaman niya yung ginawa ko. Ang laki ko daw na tanga. Pero I told her para magkaron na siya ng katahimikan. She was grateful pero ang tanga ko daw talaga. I know it naman e. Ang tanga ko daw pero she told me she wanted to see for herself. And so she did.

FEBRUARY 9, 2013

Dumayo si Mai sa Mendiola para malaman yung totoo. Mga 3 PM na kami nakapunta ng Mendiola. Siyempre kinakabahan ako para sa kanya kasi hindi ko alam kung anong magiging reaksyon niya. I texted Ramon’s girlfriend and she said andun lang daw sila sa dating place. I told her na papunta na kami and ayun nga, on our way there, I asked Mai if  she really wanted to see for herself. Sabi niya, oo daw. Kaya naman sinamahan ko lang siya.

Nung nakita na ni Mai si Jed— este si Ramon, nangiti siya. Hindi siya umiyak, hindi siya nalungkot. Natuwa pa siya. We sat there for a while. Napag-usapan ulit ang mga dapat pag-usapan. Ininterview nila si Mai tapos nakita din ni Mai yung mga pinakilala ni “Jed” sa kanya na mga kaibigan daw niya. Andun silang lahat. And they were joking pa nga calling others what Jed named them. The conversation went on and on hanggang sa mag-aya na akong umuwi dahil may pupuntahan pa kami ni Mai.

They took a picture pa nga e. Para sabihin na nagkita na si Mai at si Jed. Hindi nga lang alam ni Jed. (lol) Ito yung picture nila oh :

So all in all, we got one answer.

POSER SI JED.

Ang we still got one question in our minds.

SINO BA TALAGA SIYA.

Kelan naman kaya namin makukuha yung sagot diyan?