Search of a New Church
I am on a mission to make myself a better person. First, I will work on my spirit. Then, my mind, and finally, my body. I want to regain my faith. I want to love God as much as I once did. If I have no other love, I know I can count on His. I just wrote the pastor of a new church in Pooler, really close to my house. I have high hopes. This is what I wrote:
My name is Scotty. I just recently moved to Pooler and have been going through a lot lately. I feel it is God speaking to me, telling me to get back in church. I have strayed from church because of my own beliefs.
I grew up in a Buddhist home but was also raised in the Methodist church by my grandmother. I owe all of my knowledge of the Bible to her existence. God put her in my life for the sole reason of leading me to Him. I have converted my mother to Christianity and am currently working on my sister.
I feel like my relationship with God has been a little damaged lately, because I have fallen prey to the world. I have been so caught up and have been so greedy that I have forgotten who actually gave me life in the first place. I am trying to get my faith back on course, though, which is the main reason for this email. God works in mysterious ways. You, of all people, should know that. I was told, by my sister, that this would be the perfect church for me, and she is not even a Christian yet. Notice that I said “yet.”
Pastor, I see that on your website, one of the church’s core values is that every individual is important to God. Yes, I believe that I am important to Him, but some may say differently. I am gay. To some, I am a sinner, but to me, I am but another child of God. I feel his anointment just like every other Christian should. I do not think he looks down upon me nor loves me any less, for “God is love” (1 John 4:8).
How is it that He can “hate” me, if he, himself, does not feel hatred? The Bible teaches two main things: to accept Jesus as my savior and to love. It does not limit my love. In any case, the Bible was written by man. What I feel in my spirit is God. Some in the church these days are too quick to worship the very Book in which our beliefs are based rather than the God who breathed us life. However, this is not me trying to argue a point that I do not know if you are even against.
My point is that I want to find a church where I am comfortable in my own skin. I don’t exactly fall under the stereotype of a Christian. I have piercings and dyed hair, and my sexuality sometimes shows. I just hope that this church can accept me when others have not.
If you, yourself, are against homosexuality in the church, I hope this has opened your mind a little. Like I said earlier, God works in mysterious ways…