Part of the reason I never talk to anyone about anything is no one can keep their fucking mouth shut. I tell you something and it should stay between you and me. I am the one who should decide who gets to know what about me, not you or anyone else. I try to trust people and I’m always let down. Every fucking time. I’m better off being a fucking hermit and never talking to anyone, at least then I know I won’t be let down.
Peter Pan
5.23.2013
Peter Pan went back to Wendy’s room, like how he entered her life for the very first time sixty years ago. He suddenly felt pain again from a very long time.
He did not grow up because he kept himself in Neverland, enjoying time for he never grew old.
Yet Wendy, the lovely and beautiful Wendy he met before, the one who used to tell them fascinating stories, was there, lying on her white bed, asleep, weak. Her skin was already crumpled and soggy, as if life has left her. There was still her radiance but it was obviously dimmer, much dimmer than before.
She was dying.
And so Peter Pan kissed her cheeks. Wendy was still cradled in her sleep, maybe she’s dreaming about wonderful adventures and even, maybe, Peter Pan.
And so Peter Pan left. That’s the saddest part of never growing up, he said to himself. He would usually see the people he love dying and leaving the mortal plain. He got used to it.
Maybe, but not with Wendy, his first love. He realized that love does not need to be undying, or eternal, because no matter what, someone would leave in one way or another. He realized that what’s important in love is growing old together - going through thick and thin, living a life together.
But Peter Pan wanted to stay young and Wendy wanted to grow old. They both took their paths away even though they love each other.
As Peter Pan leave, Grim Ripper entered the room.
And Peter Pan never grew old.
Let me tell you something kids… I get asked this on a daily basis – no joke. It’s one of the things I can almost depend on. Why do you like Ramsay? I can’t see any reason to like him… so how do you? He is a bad person… etc. etc. It gets a little tiring to be honest and it makes me feel a little gloomy because I never see other people having to justify or explain why they like their favourite characters, and if they do get asked; they don’t get asked with this air of ‘how could you!’ that seems to get thrown around my side of the fandom, the Bolton side.
I’ve haven’t been sure about writing this for a while because everyone seems to just think he’s this stock ‘monster’ and that anyone trying to analyze or talk about his character is marked as a ‘sympathizer’ or you get called names and told you are ‘glamourizing sadists’ or that you are ‘condoning torture’ – well I think it’s really funny because there are a lot of characters that are quite popular that are also sadistic or morally grey and I don’t see them getting thrown as much shit as we do.
Now, I’ve always liked villains. A lot of my favourite characters are the ‘baddies’ or the morally grey characters that have no redemption arc. I mean, my first crush was on the Sheriff of Nottingham in Prince of Thieves okay? I had a crush on Scar in the Lion King… This isn’t new for me. I also love that it’s okay to like certain ‘baddies’ such as Hannibal Lecter but totally wrong to like Ramsay… what the actual fuck?
So let’s talk about Ramsay. He’s a bad man. He’s a murderer, a torturer, a rapist and a sadist. No doubt about it, he’s a fucking bad man. He’s really open with his depravity too – no shame, actually he’s quite proud of it. He’s also got some real ‘Daddy Issues’ in regards to his lowborn status and trying to live up to what he believes a nobleman of House Bolton would be. He’s like this extravagant caricature of what he thinks his father is; his daddy still hates him though.
Firstly, I fucking love that he is a bad man. I truly like that about him, he is bad and he knows it and he doesn’t care. There is no redemption arc for Ramsay, there is no underlying ‘woobie’ factor – he is just an evil man. People used to go on and on about people woobifying Ramsay because he’s played by Iwan… you can’t. It’s impossible because he is way too corrupt and way beyond any salvation, and that is really fucking hot.
Secondly, Ramsay is a magnificent foil for Theon. They actually share a few similarities such as daddy issues and arrogance, though Ramsay may be slightly smarter and luckier than my baby kraken, Theon. They have both gone above and beyond to try and impress their fathers and it hasn’t worked for them. It’s like Ramsay is the perfect antagonist for Theon as he mirrors some of Theon’s shortcomings so well.
Thirdly, like I have mentioned before, the chapters in ADWD were pretty heavy reading for me as Theon is one my favourite characters and I did not like what had happened to him and what was happening to him – now I don’t know if it was because it hurt so much or because I just like evil creepy dudes but slowly I started to really like Ramsay. He added some well needed dark humour into those chapters – as well as the fact that well, he turned me on. I’m not going into that here – but friends of mine will know what I’m talking about.
Lastly, and my most favourite reason, is because I do. I don’t know, I found his character interesting and something about him resonated in me. I guess it’s the same as you with your favourite character… something about him just lit a fire in my heart and really got my attention. I can’t really put it all into words, it all just clicks together – my interests, my past, my kinks, my life… it all lead to me finding Ramsay to be an interesting and likeable character. I mean seriously, sit down and think about the character you like, and tell me it’s not the same for you.
So, yeah, I’m not going to apologize anymore for liking Ramsay. I’m not sorry that I like him at all, I don’t have to feel obligated to feel sorry for liking him and for gushing over him. I don’t and I won’t. I am hanging that hat up. I just fucking love him.
I hate it that people on the phandom are suddenly like 'no I don't ship it, it's just my brotp' and stuff, because when I joined phandom practically everyone shipped it. I started posting phan stuff and I instantly gained loads of followers and people loved the phan art (I easily got over 1000 notes on my drawings) But lately I have felt like I violate some kind of law when posting phan art and shipping it. People ignore it or worse, hate on the drawings. I'm quite sick of it tbh
I FEEL U BRO.
It’s like everyone feels obliged to play phandom police and KEEP ANY HARM FROM DAN!!!111
And Phan very bad!!11 Very triggering topic for Daniel James Howell!!!!!
But Daniel James Howell 21-year-old man and u 12-year-old Dangirl u ask ???? ??? ? ? ? ???
DO NOT MATTER!! !! !! ! D4n hate Phan!! !!! I hate Phan === D4N LUV ME !!! !!! !!
Like god-fucking-dammit, shut your annoying asshole of a mouth before I throw all of you into an active volcano.
