Jesus fuck, when did I turn this miserable? I just wanna lie down and cry but it feels like I have no tears left…
I love her so and wished it would just stop. It hurts. Hurts so badly. If only I could give it up and not feel ever again. Suddenly, I nearly want to back to the numb state I was in a month ago.
Nevermind. There came the tears.
Let's do it.
My dream date ASAP:
I’m sitting on a grassy field lying on Paul’s legs. It’s a hill so it doesn’t make an awkward position for him. The sky is blue there’s nothing much in sight. Slight breeze. Colourful flowers all around. Paul’s like staring into the sky with his perfect face. And it’s quiet. And I’m like almost asleep and I have a kitten in my hands with clear blue eyes. Paul’s wearing a suit. I don’t know what I’m wearing.
Holy crap this is just. Ugh. I am such a romantic when it comes to boys. But with girls I’m just the biggest pervert. What the hell.