When your gallbladder disowns you: Jesus please heal me.

Ever since my c-section in April, I’ve been having these horrible crippling pains in my abdomen. I thought they were just gas attacks, but the attacks got to the point that they are so painful, I can’t breath. It feels like someone or something is ripping my insides apart when they happen.

I went to the doctor and they checked for an ulcer, but that came back negative. So they did some blood work and found that my liver enzymes are high and said that gallstones are the problem and that I’ll probably have to get my gall bladder taken out.

This is horrible! I do NOT want another surgery. I have never had a surgery or been admitted into a hospital in my life prior to having my son. The c-section was traumatizing as it is, and another surgery is not a happy idea for me.

To top off my fear of surgery, my pregnancy insurance is about to end. So, if I do end up having to get this surgery it could very well end up being out of mine and my husband’s pocket. That’s over $12,000. I don’t know about any of you all, but we’re lucky if we have room each month to buy name brand toilet paper over generic, let alone throw $12,000 at a surgery.

I hate complaining and feel like I’m not trusting the Lord in this and that really makes me feel sick. I need the Lord in this and I really need prayer. I need prayer to not have fear, I need it to be able to have faith in Jesus and trust Him, and I need it so that a miricle can happen.

I don’t know anyone on tumblr really, and feel like this is a long shot in the dark, but if you by chance happen stumble across this and read it, please pray for me. I know this problem isn’t as complicated or urgent as they come, but it would really mean a lot to me and my family.

God is with us I know, I just wish my flesh would stop worrying so I can get some sleep. I feel weary.