Deployment day 1

Today is one of the hardest days of my life. I figured id start a blog so I have somewhere to write these feelings , thoughts , questions & moments down.

My boyfriend is leaving for Afghanistan. My heart is broken, but Im trying to stay strong. Its so hard to know your going to miss someone…its even harder to feel it. Life just isn’t fun or colorful anymore. I know times will get better and that its only temporary (or atleast that’s what I tell him) but its so hard to stay positive all the time. He’s my best friend, worst enemy at times, my biggest fan , he means so much to me. I don’t know what my days are going to be like not being able to text or call him..see him..play friggen words with friends!! Im a over thinker and him being gone is like a slap in the face of how much I need him everyday to be there.

Now its my turn to pay it back to him. this deployment will not break us, him, or me. We have to get through it to be together in our perfect happy world again…so damn it will. Hooah!