Since wala mga taong kilala ko ngayon (di online)

Hats off na ako. :) Pero ang weird nga kasi masaya ako na aalis na ako. Wala na akong pakialam kung ganyan ganun. Basta tinatapos ko na lang mga groupworks ko. :) Tapos ayun. :) I’m done. I know pagsisisihan ko din ‘to one day, na osige tawagin niyo na akong quitter. Pero sobrang iba. As in. I’ve never felt so dumb in my entire life. Pero I’m not saying I won’t return. I just feel na, it’s not yet my time. And sobrang thankful ako sa mga taong sinabihan ko. Sa mga taong naintindihan ako. Dun sa ahya ko na sobra talagang naintindihan ako at pinayuhan ako. Kay bff na sobrang sinamahan ako nung sobrang I’m at my lowest at nakikinig sa lahat ng mga rants ko. At syempre sa magulang ko, na sobrang naintindihan talaga ako. Na hindi nagalit sa akin at sobrang suportado pa din ako, kahit pakiramdam ko na I’m a disappointment to them. Sinabi at pinaramdam naman nila na hindi. Basta, I’m not ready. Whatever you want to call that, pero proud ako na natry ko at inaamin kong hindi ko pa kaya. Sobrang depressions at suicidal ideation ang pumasok sa akin dahil dun, so I need to soul search. AGAIN. Grabe din ang iyak na nagagawa ko everyday. And I know, when God wants me to become a doctor, eventually I will be one. :) So, yes. I am Robi Domingo Espedido, and I am quitting Medschool, something I have thought of for a very long time. And I am happy. :) To my classmates, 1-A you are the best, I would never have wanted another section. I’ll see you there at the finish line, one day. :) 

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And this took me a lot of courage to put this into my blog. But I’m tired of hiding it from people. So I’m letting this all out. I’ll definitely miss the stress and pressure, the sleepness nights, the crying and the moodswings. But it’ll be worth it. I don’t want to lose all my identity in the process and be someone very opposite of me. Actually, no words can define all this medschool shit that has gotten into me. Pero yes, this is it. I am happy, I may be a quitter for some but for me, I just figured out that this life isn’t for me, yet. And it’s really hard, but I was able to get over it.  :) 

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So what will I be doing now? I’ll be at service for my family, my friends and everyone. :)