seriously i wanna DO something, i don’t wanna spend the rest of my summer inside of my house, doing absolutely nothing. i feel like i’m in prison, like i have nothing to do here, only like blog which is getting boring tbh and i just want to go OUTSIDE. like ugh, i wanna go swimming, i wanna go to the zoo yes i want to go to the fucking zoo because the zoo makes me happy okay, and i wanna go to the beach, and meet new people and go to town and stand there with a “Free hugs” sign, but unfortunatly i have no fucking one to do it with. because i have no friends.
I guess I should change something about myself since all of my friends act like I’m such a bother all the time. Literally none of them ever want to hangout, I always have to make the plans and if we do hangout it’s always with someone else. I, for some reason can never hangout with my friends by myself. I don’t really understand.
There’s this really attractive, possibly queer girl in my class. I kept sneaking side glances, and then when we got up to sign our names on the role, she looked at me. OH MAN. Feels like middle school all over again— getting excited over a glance. I regret nothing about this excitement though. Gives me a reason to look cute for class now!