I don’t want a normal relationship.
That’s too boring. I want to argue because making up will make us stronger. I don’t want to always call each other baby and boo because that’s played out. Let me wear your sweatshirt. Play fight with me. Don’t let me win either. Tease me. Stay up with me all night and play video games. Take pictures with me. Tell me to shut up because I talk to much. Kiss me. Text me “Goodnight beautiful”. I want that kind of relationship.
“I think she was afraid to love sometimes. I think it scared her. She was the type to like things that were concrete, like the ocean. Something you could point to and know what it was. I think that's why she always struggled with God. And I think that's why she also struggled with love. She couldn't touch it. She couldn't hold on to it and make sure it never changed.”—Carrie Ryan (The Dead-Tossed Waves)
hindi mo man nakatuluyan yung first love mo, may isa ka namang bagay na natutunan dahil sa kanya- ang magmahal. alam ko na yung iba sa atin eh humihiling na sana yung first love nila eh yun na yun forever, tipong yun na rin yung magiging asawa nila. kaya lang, hindi ganun kabait ang tadhana sa atin. masyado itong mapaglaro. kung sino yung gusto natin, eh hindi naman tayo gusto. o kaya magustuhan man tayo, sobrang pansamantala lang. ang sakit diba kung mahal mo at hindi ka naman mahal. lalo na kung first time mong maramdaman yung feeling ng pagmamahal. oo, masarap kung masarap pero masakit kung masakit. ganun ang love eh. it’s all about happiness and pain. well, kahit na nasaktan ka, sa huli eh papasalamatan mo pa rin yung first love at first break up mo. kasi nga, sa tao na yun, natutunan mo kung paano ba ang magmahal.