Do you know that moment when you realize that you’ve been hurt? Not physically, no no. But emotionally, rather. And the truth is you didn’t want to admit that you were hurt. You wanted to just ignore it and move on and not have to deal with any messy hurt. If you ignore the pain, it won’t be there.
Oh, daughter, don’t you know that’s not how it’s supposed to be?
Tonight I let myself realize that I have been hurt. I let myself feel the hurt. And in that moment, as I was reading a book which was helping me pinpoint my hurt, it was like Jesus said something like “See, My ways would not have hurt you. Daughter, you have been hurt here because of imperfection; because of sin.”
Why don’t we let ourselves be vulnerable? Why do I put up walls? Oh, He is so beautiful. He did not intend for me to be hurt, but at the same time He will use this hurt to grow me.
growth = maturity = closer to Him.
Oh, love.
Oh, pain.
Oh, grace.
Wicked The Musical - For Good
wicked SoundtrackI’ve heard it said
That people come into our lives for a reason
Bringing something we must learn
And we are led to those who help us most to grow
If we let them
And we help them in return
Well, I don’t know if I believe that’s true
But I know I’m who I am today because I knew you
Like a comet pulled from orbit as it passes the sun
Like a stream that meets a boulder halfway through the wood
Who can say if I’ve been changed for the better, but
Because I knew you, I have been changed for good
It well may be that we will never meet again in this lifetime
So, let me say before we part
So much of me is made of what I’ve learned from you
You’ll be with me like a handprint on my heart
And now whatever way our stories end
I know you have rewritten mine by being my friend
Like a ship blown from its mooring by a wind off the sea
Like a seed dropped by a skybird in a distant wood
Who can say if I’ve been changed for the better
I do believe I have been changed for the better
And because I knew you, I have been changed for good
“There's a few really heartwrenching parallels between A Study in Pink and The Reichenbach Fall. Sherlock and John say goodbye at the same place they met- St Bart's. There's a painful parallel, too, between the scene in Pink where John races to Sherlock's rescue, only to find himself seemingly too far away to help him and watching in agony. Only in Pink, Sherlock is in danger because of his ego, and in Reichenbach he's in danger because of his love for his friends. In A Study in Pink John surprises everyone by saving Sherlock, even though he was so far away. In Reichenbach, he can't. A Study in Pink is the first time we see Sherlock prioritise a friend over his own ego and self-image ("Ignore all that. That was the shock talking.") In Reichenbach, he chooses to risk death and be remembered as a fraud rather than endanger his friends.”
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one time i bought this guy a fight club shirt bc he was obsessed with fight club and he told me hed pay me back if i bought it for him bc he was like out of town at the time or whatever and anyway i bought it for him and that bitch never paid me back and he unfollowed me on tumblr and twitter and unfriended me on facebook and i just
"I will give you the love, the love that you never knew."
You know those times where you know you’re in a dangerous spot? It’s like you know exactly what you’re doing, and that it’s not helping the hurt. Yet you just want to stay. You don’t want to move. You want to keep poisoning yourself, because it feels good; in some twisted, backwards way, it feels good.
No.
I’m done with that.
How can I stay in a place I know is breaking His heart? How can I inflict pain into His most treasured possession? Yeah, it’s hard. Yeah, I’m achy. But I cannot let myself be so weak.
It’s like He’s instilled something in me, that won’t let me give up. I don’t get it. So many, many times I just want to give up. But I’m incapable of such.
Look at that. It is no longer me, but Christ. It really is no longer me, but Christ.
oh, Hallelujah.
