Like Water - Capital STEEZ, Joey Bada$$ & Cj Fly (Produced by Statik Selektah)
Pro EraMy last post of 2012…….RIP Capital STEEZ (u already know, ‘93 til forever cuz ur soul n music lives on)
‘And I Quote…….’
Last day of the year...
Here we go again. I vaugely remember how the beginning of the year went, but that’s mostly because I try not to think about it. Too many “bad” things happened at once, yet still, here I am again: I survived.
I’m not going to go into detail about how my year went, but I will say that this year had more downs than ups compared to the previous year but not compared to years before (If that makes sense). I can’t say whether this year was good or bad either, despite the circumstances, because every year is different, no matter how much they feel the same. I’m not going to come up with any new years resolutions, but I will carry on the goals that I’ve made years ago because, if you didn’t figure it out by now, you can start over whenever you want—you don’t have to wait until the new year to change anything.
I don’t mean to sound so cynical. Trust, I can appreciate the symbolism of starting over with the new year and leaving behind the old year. I used to wholeheartedly believe that a good year could take place if the year started off on the right note; a clear mind, a clean home and a positive atmosphere. But things happen for me at such random times throughout the year (both good & bad) that aligning “new beginnings” with the new year just doesn’t make sense anymore. It makes much more sense for me to treat every day as a new beginning. But that’s just me.
I’m happy my family & I made it through this year. I’m happy to put another year behind me to get another year closer to finishing school and another year closer to paying my dues, but I’m also kind of scared knowing that time moves really fast and that there are a lot of things I have to leave behind. Yet, I’m hopeful and excited for any opportunities that may present themselves or I may find in the upcoming year, & I know that this is going to be a tough year. Going into a new year is always bittersweet. But that’s life, I guess. All I can do is keep breathing, keep my head up, keep on keepin’ on (you know how it goes).
Hope everyone has a happy NYE! Take care & be safe, wherever you are, and make the new year AWESOME! (*cue New Years episode from HIMYM)
last post of 2011.
this time of the year gets to me.. it’s always very hard for me to even explain what i’m feeling. it kicks up my anxiety so much. so i’ll just say that this year.. this year was good. it was hard, it had a lot of change, pain, battles, hardships, and many other sad things. but it was also full of smiles, laughter, memories, happiness, a full heart, and lots of other wonderful things. God is good, all the time. even in the hard times, the good times, and whatever else. He is good. He never left or abandoned me even if i felt like He did, He did not. and He never will. God loves me, for everything that i am. every splinter in my eye, every cold crack in my heart, the nasty sin i have, He loves me. and He will for all of the years to come.
this next year scares me to think about, since i am not fond of change, but it is still welcome. it has to be. pain, hardships, and fear are necessary for growth. and this year i vow to let God use me for whatever His will may be. no holding back. no matter how hard. it’s not going to be easy, but i will do it.
the year 2012 may scare me, but i trust God, my shelter, and He will provide.
I am His.
2012
il 2011 è finito e bom non ho nulla da dire, so solo che sono felice di quel che ho e per quello che non ho posso sempre rimediare…non è mai troppo tardi
non navigo nell’oro, ho più di mille problemi di natura economica, sentimentale, sociale, e personale ma non posso stare sempre a vedere quello che non ho e i mille problemi che incessantemente compaiono, devo imparare a vedere le cose belle, farne tesoro e combattere perché quelle tristi si risolvano..
sono cose che so da sempre ma che non ho mai veramente la forza di fare.
Durante quest’anno ne ho passate veramente tante, in compagnia e da sola ma soprattutto da sola; Ho imparato anzi ho dato conferma a molte cose che di certo non starò qui ad elencare.
Certe volte ( molte volte/spessissimo/ok, quasi ogni giorno) mi sento sola, ma so che non lo sono davvero,ho una famiglia che per quanto mi dia sui nervi ci tiene ai miei successi, ho degli amici che anche se pochi e rari dicono di tenerci a me, e io ci tengo a loro molto più di quello che immaginano,purtroppo però ho “perso” per causa di incomprensioni e altro una di loro,
molti continuano a dirmi che alla fine se le cercata lei, che se è stato così facile separaci la nostra amicizia non era più salda come pensavamo ma non so, so solo che la gente cresce e fa delle scelte, prende diverse strade e per crescere non bisogna guardarsi mai indietro con rammarico o tristezza, se guardiamo indietro dovrebbe sorgere in noi un sorriso che indichi serenità e un poco di nostalgia perché i ricordi, i bei momenti passati insieme, erano veri e non potranno mai essere cancellati.
So che sto scrivendo a caso e sto scrivendo di una sola persona ma ora che ho cominciato non posso smettere di scrivere
e non so se leggerai, alla fine ti ho “costretta” io a farti tumblr,così come molte altre cose di cui poi non fai molto uso ma va bene così volevo solo averti vicina in qualsiasi momento
e boh mi manchi, mi manca quel nostro rapporto ma non posso fare nulla per riavere la stessa confidenza/amicizia,alla fine credo che tu stia bene con loro, non lo so non sono capace di chiedertelo e boh,non so credo di star bene, amo, sorrido, parlo, lavoro, credo che sì per ora vada bene così.
La fine dell’anno mi mette sempre una tristezza addosso che non ho mai potuto capire, ma va bene anche così in questo momento sono insieme a persone che significano molto per me, persone che ci sono state anche quando avrebbero potuto fregarsene, ( ad eccezione di una o due ma le vedrò all’inizio dell’anno ).
immagino che anche tu sarai insieme a loro, a sorridere, ridere e scherzare.
io lo spero
spero davvero che per quest’nno che viene tu sia serena,spero tu sia abbastanza forte da combattere per i tuoi ideali, sei forte ce la potrai fare, hai degli amici in fondo
spero che questa mia condizione di scema isterica finisca perché MANCANO27GIORNI e sarà maggiorenne in tutti i paesi del mondo o.o
ah sì
BUON ANNO A TOUT LE MONDE
HEY ALL YOU PEOPLE
You can listen to me if you want…like no pressure or anything. BUT SERIOUSLY YOU SHOULD LISTEN. I have tons of goodies in store for the next year, and I just wanted to say how much I appreciate all that follow me and even talk to me! I KNOW I PROMISED A LOT OF PEOPLE that I would contact them, but life got in the way (as usual. Rude.) and this year brings more time and dedication from me! When I get back to chicago of course mhmm.
So in the last post of the year for me,
HAPPY NEW YEAR AND MAY IT BE FILLED WITH JOY AND WHATEVER ELSE THE KIDS LIKE.
ending 2011 happily. i've had an exceptionally amazing week & i had a great night tonight with my best friends, & am honoured to be a bridesmaid in one of my best friends' wedding next year. (:
nye will be awesome no matter what!! definitely looking forward to today & tonight, & to the awesomeness of 2012. (: so much happening next year!
hope you guys have a lovely nye & an even better 2012!
So this years coming to an end & I think I’m ready for what 2013 is going to bring for me.
2012 has taught me so much about people. From the way people can just truly hurt you without feeling any guilt to people who genuinely care for you & are there for you through thick and thin. I think this year has made me grown as a person & really gave me a good slap in the face & really taught me that the world is a fucking crazy ass dream & you just need to deal with it & enjoy it while you can.
I’ve taken so many chances this year & I’m going to say bye to 2012 with no regrets because everything I did, was a learning experience. I honestly don’t know where I would be if I never made those choices. I know I’ve made incredibly stupid decisions this past year but now I know better & that’s what matters.
Even though my parents aren’t at the best terms right now, I have two amazing parents who really do care for me & support me.
Even though those people who walked out of my lives are not there for me anymore, I still want to thank them for teaching me that friendships & relationships never last. Only the really good ones do.
Even all those douche bags that I’ve met throughout this year have hurted me, I thank them because now I know what I don’t want in a guy & now I know how I want a guy to treat me. They’ve given me the moments of happiness that I needed & the heartbreaks that came along with it.
This year has really made me grow as a person & it really has shown me that life is too short, just live it up! I’m ready for whatever life experiences 2013 will be bringing me. Come at me bruh!
Last ooc post for me this year
(So yeah last post. I loved being here and meeting everyone. I really wanted to thank everyone that I rp with and talked to this year. It was a blast! I never knew there were so many Sonic rp blogs on here, but I was wrong. Thank goodness I made a blog.
I wanted to give a gift to all my followers this year but I wasn’t able to finish it sadly… I will upload it tomorrow for you all and I hope you like it. I hope this year is better for me and everyone else.
Plus I graduate high school this year ugh… now I have to face more of the world’s shitty problems… Well I have to face this moment one day! ~Love, Joelle (yeah that’s my name guys!)
Last 20 minutes of the year...
A re-cap of 2011? Let’s see…
From the very beginning, I’ve struggled with myself: my mentality, ambitions, spirituality, etc. As the year went on, I basically stopped caring about a lot of things and then there were moments when I realized that I should care and I either did and changed my actions for the better or I didn’t do anything at all. For the first half of the year, I was in my second semester of 10th grade, probably my worst year of high school yet. My grades in school were unacceptable (for the standards I set up for myself), I was unbelievably lazy, I procrastinated a lot, I became a bit more reclusive, I was a bit depressed I admit, and overall, I was just at a low point. I injured myself a lot too (of course, unintentionally). As I continued practice for the distance team in Track and Field, I ended up hurting my back (I had to miss two weeks of practice), I got horrible shin splints (which still affect me from time to time), I got the flu (which caused a set back in my practice as well), and I tired myself out even more (I was already sleep deprived and I ran miles and miles 5 days a week, sometimes 6). I had school to worry about, speech and debate, key club and CSF hours to finish, and I had too many things to worry about that I stopped caring and put them off. I procrastinated BIG TIME and I regret it now. Summer came along and I was finally able to relax. It was a bit uneventful, but I was simply glad I could sleep in and not worry about anything until school came around. I had promised myself that I would take junior year more seriously, and though it was hard at first, I was able to keep that promise. This semester of my junior year, I can honestly say that I have worked harder than I ever have in my high school career and I am pretty happy with my results. I enjoyed the time I had in my art classes, learned a lot in my physics and anatomy classes, improved my writing abilities and my performance in math, and joined more clubs. I have also made new friends and am becoming more confident in myself. Overall, I laughed, I cried, I sung, I prayed, I danced, I discovered new things, I argued, I appreciated more, I’ve won some battles and I’ve lost some, but I’m pretty content with the end of 2011.
Here’s to 2012.
Happy New Year!!!
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HAPPY NEW YEAR! :D
I’m not going to be on for the rest of the day, so I just wanted to say thanks to all of my followers; this is the end of my first calendar year on tumblr so it’s really cool that I had tons of cool people to share it with!
I’d list you all by name but it’d take way too long and i’d be too paranoid that I left someone out so just…. take my collective thanks.
And have a great new year! A new year brings new opportunities, so make sure you don’t miss a single one! :D
Oh and I included a pic of me under the cut so that you could all see my face as it wishes you guys a great new year.
Last post of 2011.
Thirteen minutes to 2012 as I started typing this.
This has been the best year of my life so far: I’ve met the best friends I’ve ever had, and, maybe, that I’ll ever have. The fragmented concepts in my mind are beginning to take shape and become what they need to be. I’ve figured myself out and am in the process of becoming the person I want to be. I know what I’m going to do with my life.
Expect my activity during this next year to superficially resemble productivity; if it does not, bother me until it does.
Seven minutes.
I used to celebrate the new year with Pink Floyd’s Dark Side of the Moon or Daft Punk’s Electroma, but this time around I don’t feel the need to. The Silents’ song Dwell off of Sun a Buzz is playing and I feel no particular emotional attachment to it. I would like to know what changed.
Three minutes.
The original mix of Clash (Caravan Palace) does seem more appropriate. Starting this year on a more energetic note.
One minute.
I should be outside.
