“Above all, do not lose your desire to walk. Everyday, I walk myself into a state of well-being & walk away from every illness. I have walked myself into my best thoughts, and I know of no thought so burdensome that one cannot walk away from it. But by sitting still, & the more one sits still, the closer one comes to feeling ill. Thus if one just keeps on walking, everything will be all right.”
—Søren KierkegaardThis is Why It's Hard to Tell People You Believe in God

“To stand on one leg and prove God’s existence is a very different thing from going on one’s knees and thanking Him.” -Soren Kierkegaard
It’s hard to tell people you believe in god because everyone assumes you are this first person. Religious people are crazy and illogical.
As a philosopher I feel entirely incapable of standing on one leg and proving that anything exists, much less God. My brain doesn’t work this way. In philosophy you learn to see the holes in every argument and proceed by negation.
This scares a lot of religious people because it seems like doubt. It’s not doubt. Doubt is continuing to believe arguments you know are flawed, or to investigate them to see if they are flawed because you are scared you will lose the truth.
You cannot lose Truth. If you chase the truth you don’t have to be scared about losing your beliefs because if your beliefs are True you’ll just arrive back at them and if your beliefs aren’t true you’ll figure that out. If you believe in God, I have to believe he wouldn’t fault you for choosing a path that isn’t hardcore Christianity because no matter what you are doing, if you are seeking him, you won’t find anything else.
If you never explore your beliefs, I feel like that is almost an insult to god. In that sense, the god you believe in is arbitrary, just the result of the lottery of where and when you were born. You just manage to hold on to something you were given, rather than really knowing why THIS god is the one you believe in. I don’t think it’s flattering to have someone win you in a lottery. I think it’s flattering to have someone find you because you are what they were looking for.