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fuck everyone and “friends” because they’re all fake anyway and in the end noone is really there for you and are never on your side. dont trust anyone because they fuck you over even if you thought you meant a lot to them. dont listen when they say sorry because if they were really sorry they would have never done it in the first place and will probably do it again.
people suck and i fucking hate them

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What I Learned In High School

  • You will regret every chance to challenge yourself you don’t take.
  • There is something in you, and in every person, worth showing. Find that something and let the world see it.
  • You will meet some people who will care about you. However, many people will not. Some will try and fail, while others will not try at all. These people are extras; you and you alone get to choose who has the supporting roles. Hold on to the people who care like your last breath; they will get you through your worst and your best.
  • One day someone who didn’t care will see me after many years. I hope that when they ask “don’t you remember me?” I will remember to ask “Why would I?” before going on to sign the next book.
  • Do not give your heart or anything else to anyone who doesn’t value you as much as you value yourself.
  • The social hierarchy will always be around. Even teachers are just grown up high schoolers. Some things don’t matter—this is one of them.
  • Never shut yourself out out of fear of being shut out. Live loudly and incessantly and the people who matter will notice.
  • Do not let the notion that a number defines you disrupt your mental health.
  • Do not let the notion that another person can define you disrupt your mental health. Never force yourself into loving someone out of fear of not being able to fall in love. You are not as cold as you think, and not as vulnerable as you let yourself feel.
  • The moments when everything around you breathes and you take a moment to look around and say “This is real, this is my life” are snapshots you should take with you wherever you go. When you’re standing alone, lost and without a car on a backroad, look up at the stars and say “brilliant.” You are brilliant. Life is brilliant.
  • Wanting to die is a waste of time.
  • Never let anyone get away with treating you less than you are. You are the most important thing in your life, so if someone gets that wrong, correct them. Remember that no one lays a hand on your perception of yourself without your permission. So perceive yourself as wonderful.

Sitting in the corner of Starbucks it’s difficult not to notice how connected everyone is— by that I mean to my left is a lady on her phone and her Facebook at the same time, to my right is a man talking on his bluetooth and browsing the web, in front of me is a man on a video call, and on the other side of a room there’s an entire table of men each on their computers while respectively jumping from app to app. Even I am here on my e-mail and writing on the computer.

And it’s ironic how absolutely disconnected that makes all of us. I’m the last person who would ever jump on the technology-is-ruining-us train of thought, but I also can’t say I don’t see the fault in the whole thing. Doing things like going out in public, going to restaurants and sitting in coffee shops used to be about interacting. Nowadays, it’s merely been added to the list of things we do while simultaneously consistently being plugged into our phones or laptops. It makes me a little sad— Especially when I realize that a lot of the time, we use our gadgets to escape the feeling that we are unable to create a reality around us that we like, and it’s much easier to lean on our online or social media presence. So lately I’ve been trying to use my phone as little as possible when out with others or not to bring my laptop unless I’m working on something that can’t be done later.

There’s nothing inherently wrong about using gadgets frequently. It only becomes detrimental when we use them to avoid or replace really living or participating. So after I finish typing this I vow to put the laptop down, start a conversation with someone, and relish in the experience of having other human beings around me. If nothing else I think that is, at the least, a starting place.

It’s easy to get caught up in the mentality that we can never be offline or away from our phones, that, “But what happens if I don’t update my blog/Facebook/Twitter tonight?” mindset. And the answer to that question? Absolutely nothing. You meet people. You drink coffee. You experience. You live. And you go from there.

“Invest in building your network. It will pay dividends in the future.”

—A specialist’s advice on building relationships with other doctors, community resources and services in a future practice.
“Write
Write more.
Write even more.
Write even more than that.
Write when you don’t want to.
Write when you do.
Write when you have something to say.
Write when you don’t.
Write every day.
Keep writing.”

- Brian Clar (10 Steps to Becoming a Better Writer)

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