fuck everyone and “friends” because they’re all fake anyway and in the end noone is really there for you and are never on your side. dont trust anyone because they fuck you over even if you thought you meant a lot to them. dont listen when they say sorry because if they were really sorry they would have never done it in the first place and will probably do it again.
people suck and i fucking hate them
What I Learned In High School
- You will regret every chance to challenge yourself you don’t take.
- There is something in you, and in every person, worth showing. Find that something and let the world see it.
- You will meet some people who will care about you. However, many people will not. Some will try and fail, while others will not try at all. These people are extras; you and you alone get to choose who has the supporting roles. Hold on to the people who care like your last breath; they will get you through your worst and your best.
- One day someone who didn’t care will see me after many years. I hope that when they ask “don’t you remember me?” I will remember to ask “Why would I?” before going on to sign the next book.
- Do not give your heart or anything else to anyone who doesn’t value you as much as you value yourself.
- The social hierarchy will always be around. Even teachers are just grown up high schoolers. Some things don’t matter—this is one of them.
- Never shut yourself out out of fear of being shut out. Live loudly and incessantly and the people who matter will notice.
- Do not let the notion that a number defines you disrupt your mental health.
- Do not let the notion that another person can define you disrupt your mental health. Never force yourself into loving someone out of fear of not being able to fall in love. You are not as cold as you think, and not as vulnerable as you let yourself feel.
- The moments when everything around you breathes and you take a moment to look around and say “This is real, this is my life” are snapshots you should take with you wherever you go. When you’re standing alone, lost and without a car on a backroad, look up at the stars and say “brilliant.” You are brilliant. Life is brilliant.
- Wanting to die is a waste of time.
- Never let anyone get away with treating you less than you are. You are the most important thing in your life, so if someone gets that wrong, correct them. Remember that no one lays a hand on your perception of yourself without your permission. So perceive yourself as wonderful.
Sitting in the corner of Starbucks it’s difficult not to notice how connected everyone is— by that I mean to my left is a lady on her phone and her Facebook at the same time, to my right is a man talking on his bluetooth and browsing the web, in front of me is a man on a video call, and on the other side of a room there’s an entire table of men each on their computers while respectively jumping from app to app. Even I am here on my e-mail and writing on the computer.
And it’s ironic how absolutely disconnected that makes all of us. I’m the last person who would ever jump on the technology-is-ruining-us train of thought, but I also can’t say I don’t see the fault in the whole thing. Doing things like going out in public, going to restaurants and sitting in coffee shops used to be about interacting. Nowadays, it’s merely been added to the list of things we do while simultaneously consistently being plugged into our phones or laptops. It makes me a little sad— Especially when I realize that a lot of the time, we use our gadgets to escape the feeling that we are unable to create a reality around us that we like, and it’s much easier to lean on our online or social media presence. So lately I’ve been trying to use my phone as little as possible when out with others or not to bring my laptop unless I’m working on something that can’t be done later.
There’s nothing inherently wrong about using gadgets frequently. It only becomes detrimental when we use them to avoid or replace really living or participating. So after I finish typing this I vow to put the laptop down, start a conversation with someone, and relish in the experience of having other human beings around me. If nothing else I think that is, at the least, a starting place.
It’s easy to get caught up in the mentality that we can never be offline or away from our phones, that, “But what happens if I don’t update my blog/Facebook/Twitter tonight?” mindset. And the answer to that question? Absolutely nothing. You meet people. You drink coffee. You experience. You live. And you go from there.
May 24, 2013
- Review class..
- ate lunch at Rob.. We’ve been eating lunch at Rob for almost a week now wtf I’m running out of money Haha </3
- i felt bad for the lola sitting behind us who got scolded by her daughter? relative? idk man but they’re related.. that fucking bastard..
- went to LBC to get Cheche’s package which was an iPhone!!! (and some Ferrero Rocher) omg guys kayo na talaga may iPhone Haha
- boy hunting at its finest omg HAHAHA
- rode the elevator haha tho Rob’s just comprised of two floors haha
- went to National Book Store.. and played around the postcards omg haha.. and we tried to learn some Arabic, French, Korean, Italian, Spanish bad words HAHA we also played an IQ Test game, Chester and Louie would read questions in an IQ Test Booklet and we’d answer him, and yes we kept on shouting and laughing that someone asked us to stop playing around and kinda made us leave the store :( Kill joy fuckers haha
- we watched the robinson’s supermodel chuva at Annex instead.. there were only 9 models for pete’s sake!! the contest did not even last for thirty minutes ugh
- the only thing that we waited for were the cuties haha unfortunately, there wasn’t one ugh.. and we also waited for some bloopers y’know haha like this
- and yeah there was one haha but not that funny tho haha
- omg we’re so mean :(( haha ok
Things to do this Summer and Fall
Go skinny dipping/bathe beneath a waterfall.
Beat my previous cliff-diving record height.
Ride more Harleys.
Shoot a deer with a traditional bow.
Go on a solo backpacking trip for at least 5 days.
Hike all of Eagle Creek Trail.
Buy a hammock.
Pick up more roadkill.
Buy a house.
Forgive Grizzly Bear.
Plant a garden.
Break something for the hell of it.
Discover an abandoned building and explore it.
Go to Burning Man.
Make love at Burning Man.
Chase a storm.
Drink fish blood.
Get a new tattoo.