random late night thoughts and or rant..
i’ve been working in retail for about a year and a half now. im kinda over it.. i love being around fashion and constantly learning new things, that part i don’t want to change. lately i’ve been thinking about possibly/maybe working for a fashion magazine. don’t really know how to go about that though.. i would love to work for Vogue. that would be fucking amazing. help put together articles or research new trends. fuck, i would even take an assistant to a assistant position just to be around/in that world. im pretty sure i’ll need a degree or at least be in school to intern or something like that.. ugh, it always goes back to school. but you see, i want a job like that, right now. i wouldn’t want to make that my career. i would most likely get tired of it and want to move on at some point. see, thats exactly why im not in school right now. i have NO idea what i want to do for the rest of my life. i want to do everything. but to choose something to do for the rest of my life? im much too impulsive for that. lately i’ve been really wanting to travel too. i mean, i’ve always wanted to travel but i want to right now more than ever. i feel like Cali is calling my name. i feel like 2012 needs to be epic. im not saying i have a “new years revolution” or something like that but more like a revolution in general. i need a change of scenery. i need to be out of my comfort zone. i need to live. fuck it, i need to be young.
im not where i want to be.
not that im surprised. im rarely surprised at this point. things are not exactly where i want them to be. i should be steering myself towards my expectations, but i’ve become aware of the fact that expecting often leads to disappointment. i just want to be for a while. i guess summer is the best excuse for just that, and its just around the corner..
Also
People shouldn’t compair me to a hipster. First off, I don’t have an “I am and will always be smarter than you so I am going to use big words and author references you’ve never heard of to keep myself superior” state of mind.
Secondly, Just because I have a unique sense of style, and appreciate clothing from the 30s, 40s, 50s, etc. Does not make me hipster, It makes me individual, and an old soul if anything else.
thirdly, having a good taste in music, and liking some music you may have not heard of doesn’t make me a hipster, it just means you don’t listen to as music as I do. my dad and brother own a recording studio, and we all sing and play instruments…chances are, I’m gonna know a few bands you’ve never heard of.
Thank you, have a lovely day.
