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Okay, I don’t have enough followers for this but I feel like I need to say it.
Hi, I don’t care if you don’t know me, because you don’t need to.
Recently, I’ve made a friend ((I’m not gonna name any names)). I found out this friend of mine cuts, because my friend thinks he/she is, “worthless”, “fat”, “ugly”, “useless” and other things that just make you feel bad.
Let’s call this friend snowflake.
I’m not sure if snowflake is being bullied, having family/friend problems, but I do know that snowflake is just really depressed and it’s eating him/her up inside.
Now, don’t get me wrong, we ((including me)) all want to be skinny and be pretty. But that’s not the real world. No one in is this world is “perfect”. I can bet you even the prettiest, skinniest models have insecurities too. And I think it’s kinda impossible for human beings to not have insecurities at all.
I don’t know what’s happened to the world. Why is everybody so concerned about their looks? What is it with weight these days? If anyone is reading this ((probably no one is gonna read this)), you’re probably thinking, “she doesn’t understand a thing,” but I do. I want to be skinny, I want to be pretty, I want to have a thigh gap and all the shit, but is it worth it?
Think about it, if you do end up skinny, are you gonna change? Most likely, not. You will be the same old person, living the same old life. You’d just be 40 pounds lighter. Being skinny, does not have its perks, you can get ill from it and stuff. But being extremely fat, basically obese, that’s not really a good thing either. And nobody, and I mean nobody, should have to starve themselves. That is an awful thing to do to yourself. Never do it. Never.
If you do wanna lose weight, I suggest you exercise, if you’re too lazy ((like me)), cut something off your diet that’s unhealthy, AND THAT IS WAY DIFFERENT FROM ME TELLING YOU TO STOP EATING JUST SO YOU GET A CLEAR UNDERSTANDING.
Going back to this friend, so yeah snowflake cuts. So, I’ve never cut, in my entire life, ever. I’m terrified at the sight of the smallest bit of blood. I hate needles and knives. I can’t really imagine doing it to myself, and I can’t even imagine how to feels. I would just like to say, to anyone out there who cuts, I applaud you. Not in a mockingly way of course. I can’t even imagine how much pain you feel ((inside and out)), and I applaud you for staying strong.
You shouldn’t be doing such harm to yourself, it isn’t worth it. I know that it seems like the only way to ease your pain, but it’s not.
Judging from what snowflake says/feels, I can tell he/she is losing hope everyday and I feel like he/she is just hanging by a string or something did I use that statement right, I don’t know, just anyways, yeah. There is hope, I know, this is just another piece of motivational crap that doesn’t help at all. But there is. And things will get better ((more motivational crap I know I know)). You can’t really just sit there and wait for something good to happen again, no. I don’t want to sound mean, but you have to get your ass up and make things better for yourself.
So all I’m saying is, if you want things to get better, YOU do something about it, not your friends, not your mom, not your dad, not your grandma ((what)), but you. Because you can control what you do, what you feel, how you see things, and all that other stuff.
I’m also not saying help from other people is bad. I mean, if you ever do need someone to talk to or just need a shoulder to cry on, talk to a friend, a family member or seek professional help. Like talk to your school counselor or a therapist if you have one. If you are too scared to tell them, talk to someone on here, Tumblr. Unless they are those mean people then don’t haha. But yeah, talk to any of your followers, whether you have 7 or 700, it doesn’t matter. And you don’t have to say it’s you, go on anonymous or something.
Judgement. It’s always gonna be there, whether good or bad. Like what I said before, “things will get better,” that is judgement, believe it or not. It’s not necessarily bad judgement. It’s something people say all the time, “things get better,” and all the stuff. Which is why I said before, it’s just a piece of motivational crap that doesn’t really help at all. I don’t really know, but I feel as if these statements only make you feel better for a few minutes, then you realize, it’s just another one of those comments. I guess it helps a bit. ((Well to me okay, before I get anyone hating me it’s just my opinion))
I know some people say, “what you’re feeling isn’t real, it’s just a phase,” but I do believe what you’re feeling is very real.
And to anyone out there who feels, useless or worthless, you aren’t. If you were you’d probably not even be alive. So, I don’t know think about it.
Suicide. That word sends a shiver down my spine. I really do hope snowflake gets better, because if snowflake ever thinks about killing himself/herself, what am I suppose to do? I’m a nobody, I just met him/her on the internet. And he/she deserves better than to feel this way. So, to anyone who ever feels like they wanna attempt, please think about it first. Think about what you’re about to leave.
Also, if there is someone sending you hate, don’t listen to them. They are probably desperate wanna-be’s that just want your attention, which they don’t deserve at all. And you don’t know, maybe they feel really bad as well. So don’t send back hate. You’ll just add more fuel to the fire. And it’s not worth it because you know you are a much better person than they are. :)
I have a lot more to say, but I feel as if these are the main topics or something. So yeah, that’s it really. I hope this post actually goes somewhere
((probably not)) because I feel people like snowflake need to know. Also, I’ve spent hours on this, literally hours. And I know it doesn’t seem much, but I don’t know, a little goes a long way? Haha. Also I know there are a bunch of posts like this..
Yeah I’m basically a nobody so this will probably get no where…
Oh yeah, I forgot to mention, you can always come talk to me, if you want that is haha.
Please I need friends
Have a lovely day. :)
Day 37: who are you
That’s a hard question…
I’m a person with big ambitions, but without the time or energy to achieve them.
I’m a person who always wants to be the best, but has never actually considered myself to be good at anything.
I’m a person who’s always happy, even though I cry myself to sleep every now and again.
I’m a person whom it pains to realise that some people will never become a part of my life, no matter what.
I’m a person who appreciates the smaller things in life.
I’m a person who likes to write, but never likes what I write.
I’m a person who has experienced the loss of a loved one.
I’m a person that never can figure out what the problem with me is.
I’m a person that doesn’t know who I am.
I’m a person that just wants to be loved.