Toss / Turn
“Go to bed,” my brain says, in a pitiful attempt to quell my restlessness.
The T.V flashes pale shadows across the room while I fashion a bundle of blankets into something more…comfortable.
I am alone in the house, and while the big plush bed and voices on the plasma screen are, in a way, comforting, they’re cheap replacements for my constant companion.
Toss/ Turn
It’s 12 o’clock before I can force my eyes to finally rest.
I am contorted in makeshift mounds of down comforters, and as I lie my breath pulls from my body slow, and heavy.
Toss /Turn
I find myself in the tumultuous waters of my own disturbance.
I roll like thunder from corner to corner of my once peaceful bed.
I flash like lightning through states of contiousness.
Toss/ Turn
The tempest of my bed consumes my rest and I am left manning my tired vessel.
Toss /Turn
I give up.
Now the T.V blares consumerist porn and fills the room with the sweet nothings of the Shark Stanly Steamer.
Nothing else is on; the 4 am market holds very little programming demands.
Now I am content to bathe in the waters of drowsy as I bide my time till morning;
neither awake nor rested for my efforts.
Turn up the Blangst in here, baby
Extra angsty, I want ya’ll to read this
Turn up the Blangst in here, baby..
Ya know what I mean, when you’re a Blaine stan, you see..
You wanna see all of the creys
(Self-harm, slushies, dad)
All of the creys, all of the creys
(Until RIB give us what we want)
All of the creys, all of the creys
♪ ♫ ♪ ♫ ♪ ♫ ♪ ♫ ♪ ♫ ♪ ♫ ♪ ♫
If you want him to cry in Coop’s arms for the rest of his life
If you want him to cry in Kurt’s arms for the rest of his life
Awwuh <3 Well me too, today lol. I was all around Bochum-zentrum, Rathaus and stuff.
Bochum is just…..so…anders als Marburg. I still don’t really know this city, but I’m beginning to understand it.
Today was fine, I’m just really tired rightnow, mom was ok even when we sometimes strugle because she is really nervig xD. (I love her btw).
aaaaaaaaand Idk.
Hope your doing fine…wait I forgot the meaning of this answer LOL.
;A; Anyway, hope we talk any soon~~ *le rolls away in a benni zombie way*
you’ll never know how much you changed me
the day you graced my lips, you saved me
and the blades are buried in the ocean
they are where i was planning on going
take my word, i was headed for excessum
but you made me feel like i deserve heaven
for a while, all it was, was suffocating
i was so sick and tired of all this waiting
for the sun to go down so i could shut my eyes
for everyone to stop spreading the bullshit and lies
but you were the one that reached out your hand
i hesitated, but held on, and now i understand.
some people are meant for you, some people are not
i wasn’t patient enough, i guess i was hurting alot
i want to be alone, but i hated feeling lonely
but now i’ve found you, you’re my one and only.
i don’t need to say I love you, you know that, you know how much you are for me, how much i miss you, how much i fucked up …. i have this feeling that by the way you and i will be together in the futur, living in the same house, travel in the world, juste be happy. But now you’re in Paris, I’m there, i wait… don’t ask you the wrong question.
we willn’t talk about that this week end i don’t want to impose this again, today is our birthday I love you Karen in my simple way.
you’re 22 today, I’m 22 today, happy birthday!
Bye My Sacred Love
Bye
A man who made me falling in love
I sacredly in love with you
But you feel different
Bye
The sacred one
Who taught me a lesson to enjoy life
But now you never enjoy my appearance
Bye
Mister sour-sweet handsome guy
We succeed to be friends and enemies
Through all the times
Bye
You’ll never see me again through your life
I realized I was just a monster to you
Who made you always avoided me
Bye
It’s over now
Lesson #6: Avoid the creeps
postgraddreamlife.wordpress.comA lesson about creepers with gold grills at bars and how to get them to stop talking to you.
The Hope Of Love
Though you’ll never know this feeling
Though my friend called you “Lele” fish mustache
Though I rare dream about you
Though I’ll never have a will to kiss you
Though I’ll never meet you anymore
But I still believe…
Loving you made me strong to be my true self
I just hope and only hope
We’ll gonna be met
Somehow
Somewhen
Somewhere
(13th of February 2013)
