I don’t who I was speaking to about the first time Dean and Cas would kiss and confess everything, but this is what I suddenly really fucking wanted and I don’t know why but, yes okay.

I said I wanted Dean to make one of his really long ass speeches of his he gives to people. About how life sucks and everything he has been through has been a hardship and how his life isn’t a life anyone would want. Then go on to talk about how he doesn’t care because this is his life and he has his brother and his car and saving people and if they get it right in the end the Gates of Hell will be closed so that’s one more thing he’ll get to smile about.
And Dean will go on to tell Cas that he always thought he would be telling this to someone else, but smile and go on about the things Castiel has done for him, and how having the angel in his life has made it a bit better and worse. How everything still sucks but as long as Cas is there with him he thinks maybe it’ll get better. Going on to explain why he needs the angel and everything about Cas Dean likes and hates and everything in between.
And then they’re kissing, or whatever, because obviously after a thing like that it isn’t going to end any other way. But suddenly Castiel is pulling back and Dean is a bit hurt because it seems like Castiel was pulling away because it didn’t feel right? he didn’t want it after that? Then Castiel starts rambling about Dean’s freckles and his voice, the curves of his body, the brilliance of his soul, going on about nothing until Dean interrupts him asking what he’s talking about so Castiel has to explain that,
since Dean made a great speech about Cas that it is only customary to return a favor.

But, I don’t know. I JUST THOUGHT IT WOULD BE SOMETHING NICE.

Sometimes l’ll compare old and new pictures of Patrick Stump and get freaked out.
He looks completely different to me. It’s weird. I guess it’s a good different, but it’s still a really weird change for me. I don’t even know.