He's an asshole
I’m about ready to tell EvilEx “Good luck finding my house when you’re here this weekend!”
The last time he talked to the little dude was on his birthday. That was almost a month ago. I’ve tried. He can’t blame this shit on me this time (though I’m sure he will somehow). I have texted him about it. I’ve sent friendly reminders. I’ve made sure we were sitting here at home at the times he set up to talk (like tonight at 7:30). I can’t do more than that.
I hate the fact that I stayed so many times when I should have left, I hate that I always come back after I’m gone. I hate how fucking scared I am of this. I hate how I’ll see one of you tomorrow or all of you and I’ll be normal. I’m so happy that tomorrow, I won’t be. Talk to me, say a single fucking word and just see how much I fucking care now. I’ve done this all myself so far, I can ask for the simplest fucking thing and you can’t even fucking offer that. This was never how it was supposed to be and don’t give me any of your “you don’t know that” bullshit, we both know. A while ago, right now I’d be writing an explanation of how I think any of you felt but I don’t fucking care anymore. You’ve never helped me, you listened, and listened, and listened and never said a fucking word. I tried, If any kind of god exists he knows I tried and he knows you fucking didn’t. I made sure you didn’t have to. And maybe its my fault, but I’ve been looking back on a lot of things and it time to make amends.
Goodbye my long lost friends
Seeing ice cream photos on my dash made me crave for some of it.
The only problem is, its 9:33pm and there’s no way I can get any because:
I don’t have cash. (pathetic, but true. A penniless 20-year old girl. Not even a cent in my wallet.)I can’t get out of the house to just buy an ice cream. My parents will do a version of 20 questions on me, throwing out 100 questions, give or take.Its freaking cold. Winter is upon this place and even if its not snowing, ITS STILL 15 DEGREES FREAKING COLDER THAN WHAT I’M USED TO.
But yes. I DO. I DO WANT SOME ICE CREAM NOW.
Will someone send me some?
