i usually avoid watching homecoming videos at all costs.

BUT a girl i know on facebook posted one, and she said wasn’t sad. it was actually really cute.

here is the link to it… http://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=player_embedded&v=mEGHP2yqgp8 and if you watch it, it actually is really cute. the little girl is just like “ohhh daddy!” and it makes me smile. and on the note of babies, i showed my dad the video and he tells me its only a matter of time till i’m pregnant and he makes that sound like a bad thing. i don’t want kids right now && i’m deff not trying, AND I’m being safe, but i do eventually want kids one day. but would it be so bad if i actually did end up pregnant? i don’t think so. it wouldn’t be the end of the world.

ANYWAY… ONE homecoming video leads to another, and the next thing i know i’m bawling my eyes out. i mean tears pouring, can’t breathe cuz i’m all snotty, red puffy eyes, sobbing. i’m ready for bobby to come home and stay home. with me. watching those videos makes me wish bobby was home even more and miss him even more. i really try to keep busy and not think about all of this, because it makes me feel weak. the more i think about it, the more i question if i can really do it.

may 21st, please hurry up and get here.