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Headaches (feat. Joe McAndrew)Old Gray
Old Gray | Headaches (ft. Joe McAndrew)
Is it always like this, or is it in my head? I’m sorry for everything.
Ten Years Ago
I thought I was in the throes of the worst sinus infection I’d ever had, I was complaining of headaches for a couple of days. I had just put my 2 year olds in for their naps and went to the downstairs bathroom to clean out the litter box. We were getting ready for their birthday party and had some cleaning and preparing to do. The last thing I remember is that I wanted to write “kitty litter” on the list.
The Mister heard a thud and some strange noises coming from the bathroom. He called an ambulance and our next door neighbor to come and watch the kids when they got up from their naps. If he hadn’t thought so quickly, I would have died.
I was taken to the local hospital where they informed The Mister that they are not equipped to properly treat me. I was transferred to the large teaching hospital 20 minutes away. If they had kept me at the local hospital, I would have died.
Once at the big hospital, I underwent a series of test and they determined that I needed emergency surgery to clip the vein that decided to spew blood all over my brain. This was after about 4 hours of tests and releases and admittance forms. If my husband hadn’t kept his cool, I would have died.
Ten years ago, I woke up in the intensive care unit after a medically induced coma of 5 days. I lived in that unit for 3.5 weeks afterwards. My sister cried during an early visit. After that, my brother-in-law forbade her from going onto the internet to google “brain aneurysm.” She had read that the chances of someone walking out of a hospital after a brain bleed are 50%; of those 50%, half will have long lasting effects and deficiencies. She was right to cry. If it hadn’t been for the excellent care I received, I would have died.
I was part of the lucky 25%. I walked (albeit slowly) out of the hospital and I returned to my normal life. I was out of work on long term disability for 3 months and then a truncated schedule for another 3 months.
As a result of the brain trauma, I suffer from daily headaches. I take medicine everyday to keep the headaches at bay. Sometimes I don’t even feel them, sometimes I want to poke my good eye out. I also have a seizure disorder which we are not sure is a result of the bleed or lead to it. So, no fancy strobe lights for me. They shaved the front right area of my head and now I have a weird cowlick there that is managed through curling irons and product.
The food-migraine connection.
If you’ve followed my blog for a while you’ll know that i like to blame everything on food: headaches, post nasal drip, digestive problems, skin problems, the weather… the list goes on.
What some of you might not know is that i used to suffer from such horrific migraines that i would throw up from the pain until i’d cried/puked myself to sleep, some episodes lasted for days, multiples times doctors thought the only cause of such extreme symptoms (light sensitivity, loss of sensation in my arm, vomiting, pain, visual disturbance) was that there was “something” pressing on my brain, i was put on multiple medications; sometimes dilaudid IVs, had MRIs… nothing seemed to relieve or explain the migraines.
It wasn’t until my neurologist wanted to put me on beta blockers and anti-seizure medication that i realized how ridiculous the whole thing was. It took such a toll on my quality of life that even when i didn’t have a migraine, i’d be anxious waiting for the next one to strike.
I decided to stop taking everything they gave me, come off birth control and overhaul my diet.
This was a few years ago now and i haven’t had one of these migraines since. The closest i get now are silent migraines once in a blue moon (just the aura, no nausea or headache) which, in comparison, are a walk in the park and i know i need to hydrate, find a dark room and sleep.
I just found a few interesting articles on diseaseproof.com that reminded me of how awful they were so i wanted to share these resources for any migraine sufferers out there. From what i’ve read over the years it seems like migraines are almost always hormone or food related so isn’t it worth a try?