this is going to sound like the weirdest issue ever...

but I just want to get it written out. You know how you have that friend that goes to gymnastics and is really great and posts pictures from competitions ? Or that friend who plays guitar and just posted a youtube video and is really great ? People that are around you, that work so hard, and are so talented in their one thing ?

kay. well. I’m trying to not sound cocky in saying this because if you’ve followed me for more than a mere ten seconds you’ll know I’m not the most confident girl. but like. I don’t know if I’m talented. I don’t know what I am. But right now I feel like I do too many things, none of which I’m great at. I love piano, and now have one in my condo. I love fashion, and just bought a sewing machine and am sketching all the time. I love photography, and I’m in school for my BFA in it. I love to bake, make everything look perfect. I love to draw, my own style of portraiture. 

I feel like I’m enjoying too many things. I’m indulging and investing in such a variety of activities and hobbies and it feels weird. Like I’m not complaining, I don’t think. But it just feels weird - there is no other word. Things are making me happy and I’m not used to that I guess. I’m sitting here with my photog sketchbook and my fashion sketchbook under my arms, my piano to my left, sewing machine to my right, and I’m just surrounded by creative outlets.

Maybe I’m just a creative person.

Maybe I just have a decent imagination and that’s my thing.

But even saying that sounds too self-indulgent and cocky.

So I was wondering if anyone else feels like this.

Like they are not really great at anything.

But they are kind of maybe decent at a lot of things.