“Do you even know how much it hurt, that you gave up on me to be with her? Revenge is sweeter than you ever were. I'm so mad at you right now, I can't even find the words, and you're on the way down. I can't wait to see you burn, you try to make me hate that girl when I should be hating you. What the hell's wrong with you?”
—Don't let an ex ruin a potential guy.
I hate you. I hate what you became. I hate how you told me you loved me and you never did. I hate you and your fucking curly hair, which I used to find so attractive. I hate you and your charming sarcasm. It’s not fucking charming at all. I hate how you changed my view on everything, and how ever since I haven’t been the same. I hate how you love her more than me. I hate how you told your friends how much better I was than anyone you had ever been with, ( and it’s true, you’ll never get better than me) but then said I was, ” Too much of a good person to bang.” FUCK YOU. Fuck you and your lies, fuck you and fuck how good I felt in your arms. Fuck how I felt like for the first time someone cared about me forreal. And FUCK you and your goddamn pot which you loved so much more than me. I hate everything you gave me ; you can take it back. You physically, mentally, and psychologically ruined my life. The old Taylor who everyone adored was gone the second you left, and she’s been on vacation getting herself together over her fucking heartbreak because of you. I’m tired of not being myself because of you. I am back and I’m here to fucking stay. She’ll never leave again. And any guy in the future is going to give me THE WORLD before I ever lose myself in a relationship ever again. Fuck you, you stoner, sarcastic, curly- headed fuck. I will never forgive you. Ever. So don’t come crawling back to me when the weed isn’t enough. ….oh and by the way, because of all of the green you’ve been smoking you look terrible. Good luck ever finding someone looking LIKE THAT.
I just want to say that I am in a very mean, very foul, very fucked up mood right now. I am so beyond pissed I could literally kill someone right now. If I owned a shotgun it would be loaded. How the fuck does someone have the right to just fuck with your emotions??? First you just fuck alllll my emotions up, then you just fucking leave. You got to leave all your fucking problems behind and I just got to sit there and deal with the problems. Then you break your fucking promise to write me. Then as if that’s not enough, you come home and are just ignoring me, acting like nothing ever fucking happened. I don’t even know if I want to talk to you but you should still want to talk to me. For fucks sake! Yeah, it might be easier to just sit there and not confront the fucking issue, but I don’t care, it’s not about you when you involve other peoples feelings. Not talking to me is even worse then fucking talking to me. Not talking to me is like not acknowledging that I exist. It’s like saying I wasn’t worth shit to you and that nothing ever happened. Which is not okay. I’d rather you tell me to fuck off than not talk to me at all.
So like I have said so many fucking times before GO FUCK YOURSELF. I don’t think I have ever been this mad in my entire life. So if you don’t talk to me and at least try to give me an explanation get ready to get the biggest reaming of your fucking life.
trivia at midnight.
What is your middle name?
I don’t have a middle name.
What are you passionate about?
Astrology, Psychology, Theatre.
Zebra or leopard print?
Leopard prints baby!
Do you have any fears?
Giving up smtg you put heart in.
Silver or gold?
Silver.
Top three places to visit.
Koh Phangan, Goa, New York.
How many siblings do you have?
One brother & one sister.
Where are you from?
Singapore.
First career you wanted as a child: Lawyer.
What’s your sign?
Aries.
Future names of your children:
Mutaqqin Damian & Isabella.
What are you listening to right now?
Daniel’s fake snoring.
Do you believe in fate/destiny?
Yes.
What are your career goals?
Psychologist than Criminal Analysist.
What is your favorite colour?
Red.
What is your favorite flower?
Daisies.
What was the first concert show you attended?
Simple Plan.
Something you are working on right now:
This and wearing my running shoes.
Have you ever had a near-death experience?
Yup.
Are you a procrastinator or do you get things done early?
Procrastinator mostly.
Left or right handed?
Right.
TV Shows and anime you watch regularly.
Glee & Spartacus.
Halloween costume idea for this year?
Arabian Princess.
What is your relationship status?
Lonely. Haha.
Last movie you just watched.
Snow White & The Huntsman.
Your best friend’s name.
Doris, Lynn & Dag.
A song that’s been stuck in your head.
Somebody that I used to know - Gotye feat. Kimbra
A book you have recently read.
Addiction, reference book.
Mile a Minute.
Seriously you are so far stuck up your own ass and your friend’s asses to see how i fucking feel… its getting really old being upset all the time, feeling like im not enough for you, feeling excluded when it comes to you and your friends. we have none of the same interests everything you do upsets me and vice versa so why the fuck are we still together? why the fuck wont you let me go? so i can actually be happy and not be jealous all the time, or unhappy, or insecure, and so i can be me. why the fuck is this so god damn compliacted… fuck love…
