“You can keep sinning, and God will just keep forgiving you, no matter what. This is true, but it doesn't matter, because: you don't want to keep sinning. Sin has, time and again failed on its promise to satisfy, and God has always satisfied. God isn't afraid of the bond you have with your sin because He knows it's already letting you down. You want more, and He wants more for you.”—Unka Glen (unkaglen.tumblr.com)
Shedding the Green Addiction
To become dependent on anything for a sense of self is a form of suffering. Whether that be a dependency on being perceived a certain way, having certain possessions or lifestyle, or taking drugs.
In recent years, marijuana use has become increasingly popular. And I can understand why. When compared to a cigarette habit or an alcohol addiction, getting stoned is pretty mild and non-addictive.
Many people enjoy the vividness and enhanced experiencing that comes with smoking weed. I don’t find much particularly wrong with it on its own. But when smoking becomes a daily activity, something is amiss.
If you find that you cannot relax and cannot enjoy things without lighting up, sooner or later you will have to deal with that. I’m not here to tell you to deal with it this minute but I will say that it is dangerous to assume you will have time to do so later.
There is a lot of literature online that one can find by googling. If you are trying to quit, I suggest reading a bit about it from others who have gone through the process. All I can talk about here is what worked for me.