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HECK YES.

I forgot about Kaelan for a while.

Well, Tumblr, back in middle school, I used to be pretty close to someone named Kaelan Decman.

I don’t think I ever considered him my best friend, but I think we both considered each other very close friends. ㅋㅋㅋ I remember being ranked high on his “top friends” list on Facebook.

Mmm, Kaelan is a rather exceptional person, one of the best influences I’ve had in my life. He seems … perfect. Hhahaha

Musically talented, artistically talented, good-looking, highly intelligent, Christian, moral (if that’s an adjective hahaha), funny, wise, social, and pure.

hahahaha remember him now?

I have a feeling I’m going to look back at this and wonder how I got close to such an exceptional being.

I met Kaelan in strings class: 6th grade.
After having dealt with him that year, I hated him so much.
I ignored him for the rest of 6th grade and the beginning of 7th, but he persisted in saying hi to me and getting me to talk to him.
Fatefully, on the first day of 7th grade, when we walked into our 5th period science class (for some reason, we had 5th period together all 3 years of middle school o_o), our seats were placed at the same table; he sat right across from me.
I sat down with an unhappy (“ugh”) kind of attitude and he humorously said, “Hi, Joyce. :)”
I eventually acknowledged his persistence and let the past go; we’d become close friends from then on :)
I restricted myself from valuing Kaelan too much because I thought that I’d start to like him, like a lot of other girls did/do haha, but he did things like texting me randomly at night, talking to me about his problems, and opening up to me (and it turned out that we live really close to each other o_o) I also remember winning this “contest” for the best project, and the prize was that we got to choose our seat (in 5th period [we already had a seat change so I wasn’t sitting next to Kaelan anymore]) and so when I told him about that, he said, “Please sit next to me. I’m so sick of [some annoying guy].” And I remembering him telling me that Athenna (his crush at that time) and I were the only girls who looked pretty in the yearbook pictures that year.
[Random: Why am I sharing this? Well, I’m not trying to show off that I had such a relationship with such a person. I think of this Tumblr as a record of my past, so I like to jot down as many memories as possible. Sad that I still feel the need to assert that even though the people who have access to this page are only close friends.]
Anyway, I must admit that I did like Kaelan once. But, oddly, it was for a very short period of time. I only remember admitting to myself while I was showering that I was thinking of him too much. 
I guess I treasured him so much that I chose to be his long-lasting friend rather than just another girl in his life.
But, even if this friendship seems so perfect, I never actually trusted him or considered him my best friend.
I remember this so clearly because, because of that, I decided that I wouldn’t attend the same high school as him.
He was set on attending POLAHS, and I applied there, got in, and even confirmed my attendance there. But, I ended up changing my mind because something about going to a high school mainly because of him made me feel uneasy. 
Since then, Kaelan and I, sad to say, drifted apart, naturally.
He still texted me randomly every now and then and posted things like “We need to hang out.” on my wall.
And we did! It just wasn’t the same as before. It felt … uncomfortable.
The very last time I hung out with him was when I attempted to help him with SAT writing. I went over to his house and we studied, not much catching up or laughter. His mom came home right when I was about to leave and so she offered a ride and asked Kaelan if he wanted to come along. He declined. 
As exceptional as he is, and how great of an influence he had on me, Kaelan was never someone I was supposed to be life-long friends with.
[Side note: Kaelan was such a great influence because he provoked a lot of thought in me and being around him encouraged me to try my best.]

I’ve never really had a friend quite like him, but I’m okay with that. I’m okay with the fact that he’s not in my life anymore, mainly because, he’s okay with it. Or, he’s always been okay with it.
I’m grateful to have gotten to know such an awesome person, and the fact that we had such a nice friendship makes me think that I’m not as worthless or easy as I thought I was.

Even so, the greatest influence in my life was always Terrence. And as of now, he’s still close in my life — 6 years and still running.
[Why don’t I continue talking about Terrence? Because there is just way too much to say and it’s impossible to summarize everything onto one post in one sitting.]

I’m so blessed to have such extraordinary friendships.

Courtesy of Terrence Lee.

Again.