So...

1. My mom is pushing me to become a geologist and to go apply for jobs that require geology….I didn’t study geology, I studied Geography!
2. 
   Dad want’s me to change my performing arts courses into minor courses instead of taking it as my major. He believes that it is pointless. In a way he is correct because this career field relies on talent rather than knowledge.
3. My dad has been looking into career opportunities for theater work and again is trying to convince me to change.
4. My dad wants me to major in geography…I hate to admit this on here but…I didn’t do well in my first year. There is no way in hell that I’m going to be able to achieve a bachelors or masters, not with what I’ve seen from this last year.
5. My mom…just wants me to be able to say that I have a cool job that involves me to travel a lot and deals with environmental or historical work. First it was geology, then archaeology, then ancient civilization history, and then back to geology….I didn’t take any courses that would work for this…except for one unit of geology that was in my geography course.

My parents have set the bar so high for me that I’m jumping off of a chair to just be able to touch it. They want me to be something that pays a lot and allows them to have bragging rights. They say that I did well in school, but I nearly cracked under the amount of pressure that I was in. They set that bar of expectation too high and can’t do it, no matter how much I scream and shout they aren’t listening to me.

Theater and music are the only things that I’m good at and the only things I want to do. Yes I fully understand that the chances of me making a career out of it are slim and the prices for the education is high compared to the average income the degree can bring, but I was never really good at anything else. Studying plant life in Biology, literature writing in English, and early 20th century History in high-school were the only other things that I really enjoyed.

People have told me that I am prepared for the future because I know what I want to do, but after listening to my parents over and over again, I’m starting to think that, that little path I’m on is coming to a dead end.

I guess in my parents’ eyes they are trying to crush my dream before someone else does. I mean, is a major risk such as this really worth the amount of money and time spent just to achieve a fancy piece of paper saying that I excelled in that field of study worth it? Or am I just already too deep  into this thought and can’t escape the idea that my parents may just be right?

I don’t want to change my major because I feel like theater is the only thing I can be good at for a job, but I want to change it in order to make my parents proud because of the career field I’d be in and to have something that is guaranteed a promising lifestyle. Or maybe I am just over thinking it due to the exhaustion I’m currently feeling.

At this point, I really just don’t know what to do anymore…Maybe after all of this I just felt like I needed to share this with someone knowing that no matter what happens, things will never change no matter what I do.