Im in the middle of a really good dream where im Janet Jackson and im on a world tour, when theres loud knocking on my door. I pull the blankets over my head to try and drown out the sound.
“Randi, wake up! You gotta get to school baby girl.” dad says. I wait till i hear his footsteps quiet and cover my face with the pillow and start to fall back asleep. A few minutes later i wake up to a pillow hitting me over and over again.
“Im up! Im up!” i yell. Dad just chuckles and walks out my room. I groan and slowly get up. This was gonna be a long day.
In the kitchen i pour myself a bowl of cereal which Ty then comes and grabs out of my hands and starts eating.
“hey!” i yell.
“Ty your a fat ass.” Dad says, “Oh, i need you to take your sister to school. I gotta make an early drop off.” I look to the door to see a bunch of black duffel bags, the usual. I wonder if its drugs or money.
“Why can’t mom take her, Im going to the warehouse remember?”
“Boy, you better do what your father tell you before i knock some sense into you.” Mom says coming into the kitchen.
“But Ma-” Her hand comes across his face so fast its almost a blur. He touches his now pink cheek and mumbles something. Ma stares him down and he grabs his car keys.
“Aight! Lets go lil freak.” He says. I grab my bag.
“Bye Pops, bye Ma.” i say. Dad kissed my cheek and mom blows me a kiss.
Once we get to school Ty hands me a roll of money. I lift a brow, confused.
“Mom was talking bout some dress you needed for some dance or somin, she said she didn’t wanna give you the money ” He mumbles, looking out the window. I knew he felt awkward being nice to me.
“Thanks Ty” i say
“Ya, ya, now get out my car.” he says.
i laugh watching the blue and white camaro drive off.
I’m in the shower and my phone keeps going off. I ignore it for the first few phone calls. At the fourth I run the water off and grab a towel. I pick up the phone, seeing Chris’s dumb ass face.
“Aye nigga why you blowing up my phone. I thought you was one of my bitches or somin.”
“Tyga man,” chris says, his voice tight. At the use of my full name I freeze.
“Nigga what.” I immediately start to think something happened with Randi.
“Your parents, they’ve been shot Ty.” He says.
“what are you talking about Chris. I just talked to my Pops a few minutes ago.”
“Someone followed them to the warehouse out south. They were ambushed.”
“My moms? My Pops? Are they at the hospital or what?” I ask already rushing to get dressed.
“Tyga. They’re dead.” He says, and the phone falls out my hand.
I’m in science when my phone starts vibrating. I look down and see Chris’s name. The fuck is this nigga texting me when he know I’m in class. I click the notification.
“I’m outside, you need to come now.”
“Nigga are you high or what”
“Randi trust me” I bite my lip nervously but grab my books and stand up. My girl Tanya gives me a look but I just shake my head and leave. Chris drives like a maniac to my house. We hop out and walk through the door.
“Can you tell me what the hell is goin on Chris?” I say frustrated. Ty comes then, his head down.
“Come into the kitchen Randi.” He says. The three of us go into the kitchen and I sit at the island. Ty stands in front if me and Chris stands to the side.
“Whats wrong?” I ask.
“it’s mom and dad. There was an incident at the warehouse today…”
“What type of incident?” Ty looks to Chris to finish.
“There was a shooting Randi. Ma and Pops…are gone.” Chris finishes.
My mouth opens, no words coming out. I start to shake, tears in my eyes. Ty comes and pulls me to his chest. Just like that my life changed forever. One moment turned my world upside down. I knew things would never be the same. If I had known that morning that I would never see my parents again I would have hugged my dad a little tighter, blown my mom a few more kisses, told them i loved them again and again. But I guess life doesn’t work that way. We don’t get to plan how things happen, or when. All you can do is live every day like that’s the last. Hug your dad tight, kiss your mom over and over again. Reality is one moment, just a few seconds of your life can change EVERYTHING.
Chris is at my door at 5 in the morning. He’s in black sweats with a snap back pulled low. His hands in his pockets and his head down.
“Chris? Baby what’s wrong?” I ask worried. I blink the sleep out of my eyes.
“Nothin” he mumbles not lookin up at me.
“Are you okay?” I grab his snap back of his head. I see his eyes are slightly red and his face pale.
“Just needed to see you” he says looking up at me finally. I pull him inside and close the door.
” what happened babe?”
“I ain’t wanna talk bout it. I just wanted to see you”
I pull him down by the neck so his head is in the crook of my neck and hug him. His arms come tight around me. I kiss his cute little ear.
I start to let him go but he hugs me tighter. And that’s when I know hes really upset about whatever happened.
“Everything’s okay love. I ain’t goin no where.” I hug him tight as I can.
” I’m tired.”
” let’s go upstairs.”
In the bed Chris lays across from me, looking into my eyes. His hands cup my face and he pulls me to him slowly. I think he’s gonna kiss me but then he stops and just looks at me.
“I love you” he whispers.
“I love you Chris.” So here I am, half naked in my bed with a man I’m completely and totally in love with, whos in nothing but boxers,and we’re doing nothing. I look down embarrassed as I take one of his hands from my face and bring it to my mouth. I kiss it softly then hesitate before bringing it down under the blankets and under my shirt. Shyly, I look back up to his face. His other hand still cups my face tenderly. I look into his eyes as I guide his hand into my panties and to my center. His cold hands send a shock through me and I gasp a little. I then start to lead two of his fingers in and out of me. I close my eyes and with his free hand Chris grabs my chin making me look into his eyes again. I groan and my grip loosens on his hand from the pleasure.
“I need help” I whimper. Chris then takes over, pushing in and pulling out slow. He kisses me passionately as he does this, making me go crazier.
He’s taking his time and I like it. I arch my back and spread my legs wider, giving him more access. I make a sound of pain when he curls his fingers in me. 3 years is a long time to go without sex and Im tender.
“You alright love?” He asks in my ear.
“Yeah” I sigh, biting my lip. He begins to pick up his pace, still keeping it steady. I moan and feel my stomach tightening. The way he curling his fingers is hitting my g spot and I can feel myself on the edge. I grab a handful of his curls and grit my teeth. By now I’m not so tender and its more pleasure.
“F-faster” I manage to say. He speeds up and my legs start to shake. I tilt my head back as I release on his fingers. I watch him as he pulls his fingers out of me and sticks them in his mouth. I pull him down to kiss his full lips again. He holds himself over top of me, his hips grinding on mine. I can feel him hard against me. He pulls away to tug my shirt off. My arm goes to my chest, covering my breasts as he takes his boxers off. He peels my panties off then looks up at me.
“Why You covering yourself up ma?” He asks me softly.
“Cause I’m shy… I ain’t had nobody see me naked in a long time.” I blush. He grabs my arm and pulls it away. I bring the other one up to cover them.
“Let me see Randi. Please.” He murmurs, brushing hair from my face. He takes my arm and I let him remove it this time. He bites his lip, looking my body over.
“You’re beautiful” he tells me. His hand travels from my face to my arm then trails down past my waist to my thigh. “I ain’t ever seen a woman so beautiful.” He looks me right in the eyes. I put my hand to his cheek and kiss my boo.
“I don’t have protection” I realize.
“I’ll pull out” he says softly. He sees the worry on my face. “I told you I’d take care of you, didn’t i?”
“Ya” I say nodding. “I trust you ” and I say that completely meaning it. I trust him with all that’s important to me, my heart, my body, my child. He’s earned my trust and I’m ready to give this to him. I wrap my legs around his waist and my arms around his neck, burying my face in his chest. He kisses my neck as he enters me. I dig my nails into his back as he pulls out and pushes in again.
“Ah-a-ah” I squeal at the pain of the first few thrusts. Chris puts his hands in mine above my head and intertwines our fingers. His face hovers over mine, his warm breathe on my lips, going deeper and deeper inside of me.
he’s going so deep I could feel him in my gut. His dick was long and thick and…
“Mmmm. Go harder. Faster.” I moan. I kiss on his shoulder, nibbling on his skin.
The feeling this man is giving me.
Randi is so warm and tight it’s hard not to moan like a little bitch. And the kissing and biting she doin on me ain’t helping either. Her sex faces tho! The way she biting her lip and scrunching up her lil nose. I like that she don’t scream every two seconds like most girls I fucked. Yeah she call my name and tell me to go harder but she isn’t annoying about it.
I kiss her mouth greedily. Her walls start to tighten around me and I groan.
“Shit” I moan, gritting my teeth. I pull out and bust on the sheets.
I kiss down her neck and on each of her breasts. She plays with my hair and kisses my head.
“I liked these sheets.” she says with a giggle. I sit up slightly to smile up at her. She gives me a warm smile back.
I dont know how much later but after however long we was goin at it, Randi is laying in my arms and kissing my chest. She yawns.
“Go to sleep baby.” i say softly, Kissing her forehead and closing my eyes.
Last night I was in my room bout to fall asleep when I heard randi and Chris fuckin in the next room. She’s my sister, I wasn’t bout to hear all that. So I got up and went over to Tanya’s.
“So what happened last night? Why’d you come over so late?” She asks.
“You don’t wanna know.” I mumble.
“Have you talked to randi yet? You said you was gonna tell her bout us.”
“Nah, I ain’t had time yet” I lie. Truth is I’ve been avoiding her because I thought she’d kill me when she found out I was with one of her friends, even tho her and Tanya weren’t that close anymore.
“You’ve been avoiding her haven’t you.” Tanya says,a hand on her hip. I chuckle low.
“How’d you know.”
“Ty. She your sister. And don’t forget you you’ve practically raised her since your parents died. She depends on you.”
“She has Chris, she’s fine.” I mutter.
“Ty your forgetting shes 18. I know I’m only a year older, but she’s still a little girl who needs her brother. I know you feel like she doesn’t need you anymore or that she’s all grown up, but that’s not true. Yeah she has Chris, but there’s something’s she can only share with you. Like the loss of your parents.”
“It’s been three years, we’re fine.” I grumble.
“Who you lying to? Cause it can’t be me, you know I see right through that. You been so cold lately. You have brothers to talk to if you wont talk to me you know,you always got the crew love.”
“I ain’t been out with those niggas in a minute” I say quietly. “I have been cold, haven’t ?”
She nods her head.
I put out the blunt I was smoking in one of her potted plants and she gives me a dirty look. I smile apologetically before pulling out my phone.
The 6 of us grew up together. Our pops were all in the game together and now it was our turn. We all lost our fathers, one by one, mine being the last. To say we have a bond is an understatement. I trusted those niggas with my life. And lord knows that’s the only reason I ain’t ripped Chris’s head off. I’m trustin he ain’t gonna treat her like all the bitches before, and he got my niece in this to! I seen how he fucked girls and thrown them to the curb the next day. But who am I to talk. Like I wasn’t doin the same before Tanya. I look up at her, cutting vegetables on the little island. She’s changing me tho…just like I think randi is changing Chris.
I understand, and that’s why I’m not gonna put a bullet through his skull.
“I’ll talk to randi tonight. You right.”
I wake up to an empty bed, and start to think Chris just left. My heart starts to pound until I see his clothes on the floor and I sigh in relief. The bathroom door opens and he comes out with a towel hanging low on his hips. He flashes me a smile.
“Mornin baby. Everything ok?” He asks, seeing the after math of my little freak out. I give a small smile.
“Everything’s good” I say. He lifts a brow and comes to sit beside me.
“No it’s not. What is it?” He asks, touching my face. I lick my suddenly dry lips.
“When I woke up and you weren’t there…I thought you left. Like all the others. I know, im crazy, paranoid, whatever you wanna call it. i just-” i start to ramble.
“Hey, ” Chris says softly. “Randi your not crazy. I’m not those other dudes. I’m right here.” He reassures me, kissing my lips softly. “Okay?”
“Okay” I say with a relieved smile. I bite my lip thinking about how fine he looks right now. He licks his lips slow. ”Oh lord don’t do that. Every time you do that I suddenly feel like I need to change my panties.”
“Well good thing you aren’t wearing any.” He growls, feeling up on my body with his hand. I shake my head and giggle.
“I can’t. Kiara will be up soon and I haven’t even made breakfast, i havent even showered. I’m a bad mother”
Chris stand up and starts to get dressed.
“I got her. I’ll have breakfast for you by the time your done.”
“Your too good to me” I say grateful. Then get up and give him a kiss.
“Do you think I’ll see Ty”
“Oh shit! Shit. I completely forgot. He probably heard us Chris!”I panic. Chris just chuckles.
“You were screaming pretty loud” he says with a dark grin. I flush and smack his arm.
“No more sex here. Not when Ty’s here.”
“Okay fine,” he says, wrapping his arms around my waist.
“Go take care of kiara please, it’ll be for a few minutes promise.”
“It ain’t no problem. I can play daddy for now” he gives me a weird look, and with that he leaves.
I stand there with a confused face. What’s that supposed to mean? Why the fuck would he even say that. And that look he just gave me, it sent chills down my back, as if he knew something. I hop in the shower. I can play daddy for now? Am I over thinking or have I just gotten myself into something bigger than I think with Chris and trey.
When I get downstairs to the kitchen entrance I see Chris walking around the kitchen with kiara on his side, talking about whatever he cooking. Kiara looks up at him with her big brown eyes wide with happiness, hanging onto his every word. She holds his arm with a death grip, as if scared he’s gonna leave her. Leave her like her daddy, whoever the hell he is. A lump starts to form in my throat and soon tears are spilling from my eyes. I put a hand over my mouth trying to hide my sobs. When the tears don’t stop I sink myself down against the wall separating the kitchen from the hall way. I try so hard to be everything for kiara, but no matter how hard it seems I can never be good enough by myself. and now ive started this thing with chris before ive finished business with trey. I seem to think only about myself and not how this all affects kiara. I wish my momma where here right now.
Randi thinks I don’t know she still seein trey. But I do. I ran into the nigga yesterday and he told me bout how randi was so excited to get this paternity test did and she praying trey is the kiaras daddy. And randi did say if trey was the dad she would get back with him, start a family. Question is does that still stand? I’m losing sleep over nigga and I know it’s stupid…I just don’t wanna loose my girl. What me and randi got goin on is different. She’s different. Kiara don’t need trey bum ass anyway, she got me. But if came down to the two of us i have a feeling trey would win. And there’s something mad familiar bout that trey nigga. Can’t put my finger on it, but it don’t feel good.
Shifting kiara to one side I pull out my phone to see a text from Ty.
Party at the club tonight, lets make it a big deal. I could use a party right now. Some shots and a blunt, the perfect medication.