DAY 1: "New Zealand to Malaysia"

Eto na! HAHA. Di ba may PROMISE ako sa inyo na everyday gagawa ako ng blog para sa trip ko na to habang nsa PINAS ako! Eto na yung DAY ONE ko! :))

FLIGHT namin today! YEABOY! :)) Pero simula kahapon wala pa akong tulog. Kasi 5 hours before ng flight nmin tapos nun palang ako nag-empake ng mga gamit. HAHA. :)) Mga 7am nag-start na ako maligo saka mag-ayos kasi 9am flight namin papuntang AUCKLAND.

Pagdating namin sa airport sobrang foggy! Bigla ko narinig may nagsabi.. “ALL FLIGHTS ARE SUSPENDED UNTIL FURTHER NOTICE.” Sobrang kinabahan ako akala ko ndi na kmi makakauwi. :)) Buti na lang biglang umaraw. Iba talaga ang powers ng prayers. :D

Dumating kami sa AUCKLAND, mga around 11am. 3 hours flight yun from DUNEDIN to AUCKLAND. Pagdating namin kumain muna ako sa Mcdo tapos nag-check in na din agad. 1pm naman yung flight namin papuntang MALAYSIA. 11 hours flight naman tong flight na to kaya tinulugan ko na lang. :))

Ngayon nandito kami sa MALAYSIA! Kakatapos lang namin kumain ng dinner ni ate. Nag-check in muna kami sa hotel kasi bukas pa ng 2pm yung flight namin to MANILA. Mga around 5pm nsa PINAS na ulit ako! AYOS! Malapit na tayo magkita-kita ulit. :))

SEE YOU SOON MGA MAHAL KO! :D

Fernweh - An ache for distance...

So about an hour of my 9 hours in the library today was spent planning my degree. There are two possibilities…

1) I don’t get in/don’t do Law past the 100 level paper, finish my degree within the next 2 years then go and do postgrad journalism or something, preferably in New York or somewhere else exciting. (Take note “Somewhere else”)

2) I am able/choose to do Law and I stay in Dunedin another 4-5 years….

That’s the part i’m struggling with. I have this immense craving for more, although people from home would argue that being in New Zealand is amazing and blah blah…

There are three potential reasons as to why this is a problem for me.

Either, Dunedin is too small and quiet for me. Not enough cultural excitement/people or whatever. I’m feeling bored and trapped, although if I actually was busy throughout the year, would I feel the same?

OR

I’m the sort of person who can’t stay in one place too long. The longest i’ve stayed in a house is 5 years, and even then I moved schools halfway through. Maybe I get bored easily with life and are always looking for things to change, develop, to move forward. But this leads to a sense of starting lots of things and never really getting settled, but is this a bad thing?

OR

That wherever I am it will never be enough. As I mentioned above, people from home (London) would be like “OMG New Zealand!!”, but to me it’s just another place, on the other side of the world sure, and it’s special in its own little way (as in you must see it/experience it once in your lives) but people get the same excitement when they visit anywhere new. Maybe whatever “more” i’m craving isn’t a change in geographical location. Maybe it’s an itch that will never go away, like herpes. I may quell the cravings by moving but obviously not for more than a year before the yearning returns…

I just pray to God that I find a job that is constantly different, always changing, maybe even evolving. But I assume that is a little too much to ask for.

I’m doomed for a lifetime of always craving something, and never really knowing what that something is… Goddamnit…

I’M DOOMED!