Okay, Tumblr, I never thought i'd be doing this. This is a cry for help.

This is my cat Smeagol

We

Are

Totally

Inseperable

She is a beautiful

Funny

Sweet

AMAZING cat, and I would be lost without her.

I saved her from drowning at birth when she was born breech.

I bottle fed her at the age of three weeks when her mother attempted infanticide, and I would have to carry her around inside my bra because she was so attached to me. She still liked to be tucked in there until she got too big, and would ride draped over my shoulder until she was six months old. She slept under the covers with me for years, she sleeps on my pillow, or on me, or by my legs, or where my hand can touch her when it hangs off the bed, still.

She became personal care taker for my big yellow lab when we got him, and they are still the greatest of friends. They wash each other.

She escaped the house and disappeared for six weeks, I went to the ends of the Earth and turned the neighborhood upside down every day until we found her. She had managed to find her way back and was sitting in the middle of the back yard calling, I like to think, for me. When she saw me, she immediately ran over, and when I crouched down she jumped right into my arms, and rode draped over my shoulder for the first time in years into the house.

She has been there with me through every panic attack, through every fit of depression, through every development negative and positive for the past five years.

She has stopped me from killing myself. I had written my note, I had given up, the mood was right. I was crying on the floor of the bathroom, with my razor in hand, when she pushed the door (that I was previously quite sure was latched) open and walked in and looked at me like I was her sun and moon. She sat in my lap and purred, and I simply couldn’t do it. I sought help for the first time in years the very next day.

This cat has saved my life, literally, and I cannot imagine the sort of emptiness that she would leave behind without being around. Without her little jelly-bean-toes with the big tufts of fur, without her 90% fluff bodymass, without her little gargly meows and the way she grooms my face and my hands.

My life would be so much more hollow, though it would not be empty, I understand she is not my only pet and that I also have friends and family who love me, But she is something truly special and my life would be sorely lacking without her. I have lost so, so much lately already.

She has been losing weight, been withdrawn and skittish for a month now. I had recently brought in another kitten, who tormented the other cats, and I assumed it was stress. When I saw how thin she had gotten, I knew that things would not work out with the new kitten, and I found him a loving home without other cats to torment.

I thought that she would improve when the stress was gone, but she did not. I was forced to force feed her, to remind her to drink water multiple times a day. She does nothing but lay in the floor. When she walks, she wobbles.

And tonight… Tonight she had a seizure.I looked up to see her seizing on the floor, and I held her for what seemed like hours but must have only been a moment before it stopped. For several long moments after all she could do was yowl as if she were terrified or in pain.

I cannot afford to get her to the vet. We owe close to a thousand dollars in rent and bills, I am out of work, and my mother is out of work and we simply have no resources. I am willing to do ANYTHING to help my cat, but I am hitting dead ends at each turn when we simply can’t catch up enough to even keep a roof over our heads.

Please, PLEASE if any of you can spare anything at all to help us out, DONATE AT PAYPAL, there is also a DONATION LINK IN THE SIDEBAR OF MY PAGE. I will be eternally grateful. I can offer nothing but my writing, and that eternal gratitude. If you donate, please tell me and I will write anything you wish if I am at all capable.

If you can’t donate, PLEASE AT LEAST REBLOG. PLEASE SPREAD THE WORD, BECAUSE SOMEONE MIGHT BE ABLE TO.

Please don’t take her from me.

Oklahoma Tornado Relief Assistance

Are you looking to donate to assistance groups to help with the recovery in Oklahoma? Several links are below. Please let me know if you would like some added, or if there is reason to remove any links.

Please choose one donation organization below and make a small contribution if you can. Anything helps. I know there’s a lot of organizations so it’s a little overwhelming, but please choose one.

DONATION LINKS:

RED CROSS

• Text REDCROSS to 90999 ($10)
• This website donation link.
• 1-800-RED CROSS (1-800-733-2767); for Spanish speakers, 1-800-257-7575; for TDD, 1-800-220-4095.

CATHOLIC CHARITIES

• Tornado relief donations link. Details about Catholic Charities Disaster Recovery Services is available here.

SALVATION ARMY

• Text “STORM” to 80888 ($10)
• Website donation link here
• Call 1-800-SAL-ARMY (1-800-725-2769)
• Mail check to The Salvation Army PO Box 12600 Oklahoma City, OK 73157 (note: you must write “Oklahoma Tornado Relief” on the memo line of the check if you donate this way)

REGIONAL FOOD BANK OF OKLAHOMA

• Text “FOOD” to 32333 ($10)
• Website donation link here. Note: seems to be nonspecific to this particular disaster, but it seems likely most/all current funds from the group are headed that way.

UNITED WAY

• Website donation link here
• Send check by mail to United Way of Central Oklahoma, P.O. Box 837, Oklahoma City, OK 73101 (note: you must write “May Tornado Relief” on the memo line of the check if you donate in this fashion)

FEEDING AMERICA

Through its network of more than 200 food banks, Feeding America, whose mission is to “feed America’s hungry through a nationwide network of member food banks,” says it will deliver truckloads of food, water and supplies to communities in need, in Oklahoma, and will also “set up additional emergency food and supply distribution sites as they are needed.” * They do not have a donation link specific to Oklahoma tornado relief, but you can donate here.

OPERATION USA

The international relief group, based in Los Angeles, says it is “readying essential material aid — emergency, shelter and cleaning supplies” to help Oklahoma’s community health organizations and schools recover. * They do not seem to have a donation link specific to Oklahoma tornado relief. You can donate through their website here. * Text the word AID to 50555 (Note: this is not necessarily specific to Oklahoma tornado victim relief) * Send check to: Operation USA, 7421 Beverly Blvd., PH, Los Angeles, CA 90036.

Oklahoma Baptist Disaster Relief

• Website donation link
• Send checks to BGCO, Attn: Disaster Relief, 3800 N. May Ave., Oklahoma City, OK 73112

TEAM RUBICON

• Website donation link
• Information about the organization can be found here.

Unless you are personally affected by this disaster, please do not go to the following link so that server loads can be reserved for individuals who need to use the website: Please spread this Red Cross website where people can list themselves as safe and well - https://safeandwell.communityos.org/cms/index.php

More information available here and this post was compiled from this comment on Reddit.