It's only because I love you.

You called me a bitch, for saying that nobody deserves to be hit.

You said I’ve been calling you out for what you’ve said since I’v been home.

That’s because you’ve changed.  Everything you say is hurting me.  You say these terrible things about other people.  But other people have said exactly the same about me.  Don’t you realize when you say you don’t like fat people, i’m sitting right there?  You know I struggle with self-image.  You know how i feel about my body.  When you say they disgust you.. i have to hold back from screaming at you. And when you say how someone is ugly, and you don’t know how they can possibly have friends or a boyfriend.  You know that I hate every aspect of myself, and that I feel like you’re saying that to me, personally.  You don’t know what kind of damage you’re doing to other people around you.  And I don’t know if you mean it, but it sure as hell doesn’t mean it’s not reaching these people.

But the worst.. the worst is when you say you want to kill yourself.  That absolutely breaks my heart.  Can’t you understand?  No, probably not, because you’ve never contemplated it.  You’ve never looked in the mirror and wished you were gone.  But I’m here, today, because I love you so much.  I’m not gone because I feel like I need to be here for you.  I haven’t killed myself because you say how important I am to you.  But I can’t be your sister when I don’t know who you are.  I don’t know who you’ve turned into since I went to college.  I can’t love someone like that.

You don’t understand, not yet.  You’re not all grown up, even if you think you are.  You don’t know, and I don’t blame you for that.  But you need to understand that they’re are some horrible things in this world, some really horrible things inside everyone.  Horrible things in me.  And you’re making them grow.  You’re feeding all the self-hatred others have for themselves.  You’re aiding feelings of discontent and dissatisfaction.  

I call you out because it hurts.  I call you out because I thought you were so much better than that.  I’m trying to reach you, because you have to be in there.  I call you out because I love you so much and I don’t want you to turn into someone you’re not.  I call you out because you’re the only one i thought I had.

Or maybe that’s who you are now.

I’ll see you around, then.

I don’t know what to do anymore.  I don’t know what to say.  You said not to ask you for anything anymore- okay.  Got it.  I won’t.

SO THAT

EPISODE

HAPPENED

a few, uh, bullet points

• it is a Bad Sign when someone who has read the manga twice doesn’t know where the anime is going
• for anyone who doesn’t read the manga, here’s a weird change: instead of living in Alibaba’s arm (??????????), Isnan is supposed to just poison Hakuryuu, making his arm fall off. THIS IS A BIG CHANGE.
• Isnan shows up and jizzes curse all over sinbad and peaces out that’s cool
• no mPreg Amon :(
• so alibaba is just….fine.
• In the manga Yamuraiha couldn’t do ANYTHING to help, which is why Sin had to hulk out and go after Isnan like an awesome psycho
• i’m guessing this will still happen but we’re going to get some Alibaba Angst first oh joy, rapture
• so they’re REALLY playing up the sexual tension between Alibaba and Hakuryuu w o w
• i love anime Hakuryuu he seems so much less of an asshole at least so far
• TANSTAAFL: economic principle stating “There Ain’t No Such Thing As A Free Lunch.” One character only gets built up because others suffer. anime pls.
• anime pls.
• pls.
• A-1 studios you are drunk
• really nice job animating like one or two people per frame godddd where did your budget go
• foca!sin where
• anime pls