don't ever believe someone is your forever and always

i can honestly say I’ve only ever truly loved someone once. she was the best thing that ever happened to me but also the worst thing that ever happened to me.she meant everything to me but obviously things change. this isn’t me dissing her but its not me saying i love her either. the way things ended things will never be the same….and I’m sorry to say but I hope you don’t expect me to say i hope you have a great life with whoever you may meet because i can’t say that and you should understand that its hard for me. tomorrow would mark our year anniversary….now it marks DOOMS day. halloween will never mean the same cause thats the day we were working on being a couple. Im not the same and I’m not sure I will ever feel the same and I hope this hasn’t screwed up my chance at finding love again. I just want you to know i deserve better. Just remember everything i did for you especially how I was always the only person that could calm you down at times or make you laugh when you went feeling up to it. Remember everything we have been through and remember how you just gave up. I want you to know that there is someone out there for me and I know they’ll love me for me and won’t give up when things start getting complicated. 

deuce